Rich was someone I had not heard about until after he died. We saw the Ragamuffin band in concert and I bought all the CD’s we could find.

As technology keeps changing and music is downloaded instead of listening to CD’s his music is lost in piles.

The Good thing about YouTube is they send random things and this last week they sent clips of Rich Mullins reminding us of how we love his music. We have been bingeing his life and music.

Both, my husband and I have seen similarities in my personality and his. I am the same person everywhere I go. There is no fake, all the good and bad are spoken of equally.

In the past, I have spoken of faults and brokenness quite regularly upon first meeting someone. Something inside had me believing people cannot be friends if they can’t handle my past.

These last few years I have been growing and learning to listen instead of talking to fill the void. Hopefully I have been growing in Jesus producing good fruit!

I wonder how Rich would have changed if he had kept living, something we cannot know but I will find his music and put it on my phone.

God Is Very Good.

Facebook post 2018

My trusted doctor left, I started with a new doctor.

She said, “You need to realize your limitations, you have scoliosis and should not help your daughter move or work in your garden!”

I said, “You want me to lay on the couch and watch TV?”

I REJECTED WHAT SHE SAID!

I am so very glad no one ever told me I couldn’t! 

I might have believed them!

I have Reached for the IMPOSSIBLE and Fought to have My best Life!

In 2015 my mom said,  “You are no longer handicapped.” So Thankful Mom never spoke handicapped out loud in my presence.

Being handicapped never crossed my mind. I just kept fighting my whole life to be strong and keep going no matter what!

We had ice skating lessons the whole time I wore a brace, continuing after surgery with a body cast. Mom said, “I cannot watch, afraid of a fall.”

Taking swimming lessons after surgery was easy.  I could do every stroke, even the butterfly, but flipping at the end of the lane was the one thing I didn’t try. There are some limits I recognize.

The only thing my parents said NO to was going to Mexico with the Spanish club. “You can’t even find your way home from a game in town, how will you find your way in Mexico?” This had more to do with dyslexic issues that where not yet diagnosed.

I wonder what my new doctor would think if she knew the year after I had the spinal fusion inserting the Harrington rod, I chose gymnastic for my gym class! The amazing trick to pass the class was using my elbows to be the round for my back so I could do a forward roll. The rest was easy.

My surgeon did say no horseback riding, motorcycle riding, or sky diving.

The horseback riding bothered me. I love horses. Sky diving was on my mind for some reason, but motorcycle riding was lost. I never had any desire -until boys entered the picture. They came with bikes and this is where my life became a bit more interesting.

I am Thankful for miracles and fight. Everything was needed to help me survive the accident. That is another story!

Hermanjean, this word I heard often confused me.

I finally understand that it is two names combined. Herm and Jean, wonderful God filled couple together so long their names melded into one.

They impacted my life greatly, how much I didn’t understand until they each died. Jean was ailing in health before COVID and died after the lock-down.

Today is Herm’s funeral. The last time we talked, I knelt by his chair and God’s Love welcome me in. The Love and acceptance radiated off him so thick, I can still feel it today.

Feeling the need to tell Herm about his wife, I told him the impacted she had on my life. Jean was the one who included me into the group. She notice I wasn’t joining in the crowd for lunch. Giving me an invitation and directions Jean picked up how overwhelmed I was and offered to take me.

I continued joining this group for years. Through these 10-20 women that attended the Bible Study and lunch, I learned how to be in a group. These older women brought me into the fold and became friends.

This was the door that opened, leading me to good changes in the future. Being part of a group is good, we are created to be in community.

God Is So Very Good!

The Peace stealer, life is attacking:

I turn to my dear old friend, Praise and Worship!  Peace returns.

Today has been a good day, but my husband found out he needs more testing. The Blood test gave a reason but why is the other question.

My mind goes to the worst case possible. Then I choose to fight and turn on Michael W Smith’s Worship album, “Surrounded!” My soul is comforted and I am able to tackle my chores.

Depending on how needy I am, Worship is Filled with Passion! Worship is better when I need it! Life has been pretty calm lately and I haven’t needed it as deeply. I kinda missed needing to PRAISE with ALL MY MIGHT!

Of Course at the end of the day I find an email telling me I still owe a bill. I know it is taken care of, but the fear of a problem tries to steal my Peace!

I NEED to PRAISE AND WORSHIP WITH PASSION again!

Thank You Holy Spirit for the tools to fight the good fight and keep my Peace.

Thank You Jesus! God Is Very Good!

This was my Facebook post in 2020 saying:

“GOD IS WISE!”

Today, my abdominal muscles were screaming, so I curled up until the pain lessened.

Finally about 8:00 P.M., I was able to sit up. Putting on shoes with hope, I prepared to walk.

When my back muscles are tired, my walking compares to a sloth. Many days I get ready to walk and only go around the block, but some days I won’t even make the corner.

The craziness of my body is later in the evening my body will have recovered giving me the ability to walk or run miles.

Yesterday, when I felt able to sit up, I started to dress for walking.  But God suggest running. I ran 3 miles. Tonight I had no thought of running.

God’s Wisdom in giving me the back muscles first came with benefits, such as running and standing up straight.

Knowing this gives me patience with the pain. I know some great gain will be achieved with muscles in my abdomen.

I am so Blessed! God Is So Very Good!

 

 

 

 

I have been hearing from God and getting guidance on how to clean my house to running daily 2 miles.

What do I do when He isn’t doing what He used to do?

There have been He has been trying to Grow me and help me to push to do what I couldn’t do before.

Could there be something that He suggested and I didn’t actually do it?

Is He waiting for me?

Help Me Jesus!

Love You!

Jesus meets the man sick for 38 years He asks, “Do you wants to get well.”

The man gives excuses why he is not well. (John 5:1-7)

Jesus says, “Get up, pick up your mat, and walk.”

The man had been laying around for 38 years, obviously someone was bringing him food and water to survive.

But now, he was going to need to learn a trade.

Because God gave me 5 new vertebrae taking away 28 years of constant pain and nerves to give me muscle: I am in the process of learning a new trade. It started little.

 I asked, “God,Teach me how to clean my house.”

This sounds like a funny request, but I had been a slave to pain for so long I didn’t know how to start.  My eyes focused on an item, I Knew, pick it up and put it away.

Message received.

I needed to step up and do what I couldn’t do before.

God Is Very Good!

I have been making meals for my family for 35 years. The gift of having everything ready at the same time has not been mine, but it has been okay.

Lately anxiety has made a claim on my dinner prep. I need the whole day to get my self together to make the meal.

Today I made fish, Rice, and asparagus. Frustration fills me, because the fish is (over) done and water still covers the rice. Turning off the oven but leaving the fish in it is my best option. The fish is dry and I am berating myself.

The stress grabs my attention. “God, What is going on?”

A care taking moment comes to mind. Dad gently says, “The potatoes were cold, the rest was good but, the potatoes were cold.”

This brought memories of my mom running hot water to heat the serving dishes and using the oven to keep food warm.

The question: How do I become set free from this anxiety? I know it might take time, But God Do Your Work! Love You! Thank You!

“Jesus Fill me with Your Peace and Confidence. Amen.”

God Is Very Good!

When I first found the Love of God, I camped out in Philippians and started memorizing it. That didn’t work well, but The Word planted Itself in my soul.

Reading and meditating on the book of Philippians started to wash the brokenness and bring healing to my soul. It is this process that has filled me with Joy most of my days. Over time it also makes a fruit inspector.

We are not to judge each other, but to look for the fruit of the Spirit: Love, Joy, Peace, Long-suffering, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Meekness, and Self-control.

In a church we belonged to for a time, the women were about punishing their husbands and women’s lib, not walking in Love and Forgiveness.

The person I was at that time didn’t understand. One morning after church I sat by myself listening and wondering why their words and actions didn’t match up with the Bible?

This person I have become now understands everyone has a choice to submit or rebel.

The glimpse of God’s LOVE I saw and felt 40 years years ago has given me desiring to grow closer daily, so I submit. I do get selfish some, but my Desire to KNOW GOD AND HIS LOVE draws me to Submitting  and Walking in Thankfulness!

God is Very Good!