Compassion of the Youth

God introduces Himself; I talk about healing.

Psalm 30:11-12 You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; You have loosed my sackcloth and girded me with gladness, that my soul may sing praise to Joy and not be silent. O LORD MY GOD, I will give thanks to You forever!

In my 20’s, (way back in the 1980’s,) I felt people were upset when I talked about God’s healing of my soul.

My impression was they wanted me to stay broken and full of fear, hiding on the couch and quiet, instead of healing and talking.

Over time, (40 years of time,) God has been shaving off ruff edges from my gruffness. This  helps me to engage more people without offending them.

God has been switching it up, (today in 2026,) when I give a bit of my history of brokenness and God’s healing, I get hugs rather than silence. IT is mostly kids in their 20’s that listen intently and give me a hug.

Is it the difference of kids today?

Or has God changed me so much to be palatable to others?

I KNOW  GOD IS ACTIVE TODAY!

HE is working to bring healing to anyone who will come to Him.

GOD’S ROAD TO HEALING: Listen, Obey, and Forgive everyone! 

GOD HAS ALREADY FORGIVEN YOU THROUGH THE DEATH AND RESURRECTION OF JESUS!

COME AND RECEIVE YOUR FORGIVENESS!

HE IS IN THE SCRIPTURES, ask Him to speak to you! He Will!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD. AMEN!

Shame Exposed and WASHED by GRACE

Eighteen years ago God set me free from Shame.

A question in a Bible Study about Isaiah 61:7 set me up for healing.

The question doesn’t use the word shame so I am taken-a-back seeing the word SHAME in my Bible.  God takes me at that moment and sends me seeking to NAME my shame.

Tears rolling down my face, I recall an 8 years old girl being asked to stand in the boys bathroom and undress so he is able remember what I look like.

The second shame is all about the hospital and the scoliosis surgery before and after pictures and  the process of being covered in a body cast.

God shows me my shame and asks me to give it to Him! As I give Jesus my shame He Fills me with His Joy and LOVE!

Isa 61:7  Instead of your shame, a double portion. Instead of disgrace they will sing for joy. Therefore in their land they will inherit a double portion; they will have everlasting joy.

In John 4, Jesus exposes the shame of the woman at the well. When her shame is exposed by Jesus, she leaves her water pot and runs to tell everyone she previously hid from, because of shame! But now being free from her shame she is free to tell everyone about Jesus!

I write emails to my mom and sister telling them how I HAVE BEEN SET FREE!

Shame shuts us down, keeps us hidden in the corners of life! Being set free from shame means all the mistakes or sins are just scars not open wounds. They are places God uses to us to help other people!

I invite everyone to ask Jesus to show you, your shame, to be set free!

He really does give a double portion in exchange for the shame! It is the best deal ever!

FATHER GOD BLESS us all with YOUR LOVE, JOY, and PEACE IN HOLY SPIRIT and IN JESUS THE SON.AMEN!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Accepting Grace

God impressed upon me,

“It is time to start cleaning house.”

I know my house is dirty! Things are in boxes because we cannot find a place for them. Life has been hard for many years. My body is gaining the strength back that I lost the last 7 years.

Bonus: my body is becoming stronger than ever.

My trouble: pain wants control.

It is easier to lay down and watch TV than to push through and accomplish something.

To feel accomplished I finished a story and posted it. When I asked God if I did Good? He didn’t answer.

TO OBEY IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE!

1Samuel 15:22

This is what God is impressing upon me over and over this year. I understand I didn’t obey. He would have been happy if I had just emptied a basket of clothes or clean the bathroom.

Something in me understands, I messed up.

God doesn’t want me to get depressed and suffer because I messed up.

Jesus already paid!

I only need to receive the gift of Grace and Forgiveness and start over in the morning.

Something in me has shifted!

I Do Thank God for Forgiveness and receive His Grace and move on.

Another part of me shifted: the ability to obey quickly!

I have been hurt by authority figures in my life and rebelling has become a normal reaction before obeying.

God says, “Rebellion is as divination/witchcraft!” 1Samues 15:23

Today, I obeyed immediately!  God is getting serious.

God shows me how I try to sacrifice because of my fear of obeying!

January 1, 2023 is a Sunday. God’s Spirit fills me making me feel like I am vibrating, then He asks.

“You know if you give a sacrificial offering on the first day of the year it will have greater A POWER!

I respond,  “I know!”

Give the $100 bill from Christmas in your journal!”

I hunt and hunt and cannot find it.

God says, “You have a $100 in your wallet!”

I am paralyzed. I cannot make myself open my purse to get the money. A strange Fear of “what will people think,” keeps me from opening my purse!

All of a sudden the offering plate goes by, I put in my $1 and God’s Spirit lifts. The realization that a huge Blessing was missed because I couldn’t open my purse! Why!

God shows me years later: my fear is about running out of food!

Realizing I messed up, I tried to make it up and Gave $100 out of my food money for 5 weeks in the month of January until my husband said,

“We cannot give all our money!”

What God wants me to do is learn to Trust HIM!

KNOW HE IS GOOD!

HE WILL PROVIDE!

THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS YOU GIVE FREELY TO ME!

Run and Rest

Running further equals more days of rest!

3m 3m r r 5m r r 5m r r 6m r r r r 6m r r r 5m r r r 6m r r r r 5m(mile 5 under 15mm)

This is my detective work.  3m=3miles  r=rest

3. & 4.          7.           10.        13.            18.           23.           27.            4. Dates in February/March

I am trying to understand why I feel like I am doing so much more resting and recovering.

Do you understand my shorthand? The first two days of running were 3 miles which I am able to run daily. After running 5 miles my body seems to needs two days rest. After running 6 miles I need 3-4 days rest.

On Friday February 27, I start to run well, then my run turns into a run/walk for a long while. The run returns just before I pick up the dogs. My 6th mile was going to be my fastest when a policeman stops me. I guess he saw me crossing the road in the dark. 

He says, “You should wear a vest with reflective tape because there are many crazy drivers today.”

The Month of March our church is showing the latest episodes of, “The Chosen.” After church we have a lunch to talk about what we watched. This adds hours of extra time sitting up which is hard on my scoliosis spine.

I enjoy talking about, “The Chosen!” It brings healing to my soul and opens my eyes to think differently.

Yesterday, we returned to Daylight Savings Time! Of course, Saturday night I couldn’t fall asleep giving me only 2 hours sleep before church! We had to be early to church for 9:15 choir practice, 10:00 church service, 11:30 “The Chosen,” then 12:30 time to talk about it and home at 2:00! Finally at home I sleep, wake, eat, then sleep, wake, eat, and repeat.

Today, Monday after DST, I wake wanting to run but my body doesn’t have it. I do take many naps.

I am wanting to get out and run well again! After running last Wednesday the 14:45mm I gain 2 pounds of muscle and everyone is noticing how I am able to stand up straight and tall again!

This fills me with HOPE!

Being in my 60’s I know God will help me gain my strength back like He helped me 15 years ago, but I am 15 years older. IT is a fight to keep HOPE ALIVE!

It has been 18 months since I walked out the door and received a KNOWING, God healed the UTI! Most of the 18 months has been doing the hard work and pushing myself with only a glimpse of success once and a while.

I NEED TO BE PATIENT, I am doing the work, I will get stronger, my house and yard will get clean and in order!

Remember God will give each of us strength to do what needs to be done when we ask.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

The Process of Growing Stronger

Fighting Battles that have already been won.

The year 2024 is filled with UTI’s after every run.

The reason probably has to do with pushing hard to regain the ability to run.

Fear of getting a blood infection stopped me from running each time. I had a blood infection 35 years ago and didn’t want a repeat. What I forgot is the danger is from a fever and running, so I quit fearing and got back to running.

My body has battled with UTI’s my whole life but drinking cranberry juice has always kept it under control. This year cranberry juice hasn’t been enough.

During every run the burning feeling shows up in the middle or end of the run. I confess healing in The Blood of Jesus, drink more juice, drink a gallon of water daily, and eventually go to the walk in clinic to get antibiotics. I hate knowing what my problem is and they think I couldn’t possibly  know.

Listening to people while standing in line for my prescription, I hear about cranberry pills and apple cider pills to help the fight.

One day after a year of fighting this monthly, I walk out the door to run and,

I know God healed me.

The Battle is won!

It is so wonderful to run and be healed.

A year after being healed, the burn returns. The fight continues to keep the Healing these last months. Thankfully, I haven’t needed go to the doctor again. I am winning the fight!

February 2026, I ran 3 miles for the first days of the month then my runs grew to 5-6 mile runs. This increase of miles has grown the days of recovery, taking me by surprise.

Wednesday March 4, 2026, the battle of getting stronger is being won. I run 5 miles.

Mile one, 18 minutes; mile two, 19 minutes with dogs.

Miles 3,4, and 5 are me alone and the time shortens with every mile.

 I run

Mile five

 in 14:48mm.

This is the fastest run in 8-10 years! I made the choice to fight differently the last week of 2024, by starting to do at least one minute plank and 12 push-ups every night before bed. Strengthening my core to make running easier!

I know it has so much to do with obeying God by increasing the distance, no matter how well the run goes. The last run in February 2026, I ran 5 miles with only a run/walk, taking 20-22 minutes a mile. (In case you are wondering it takes more than 2 hours to run 5 miles at that speed) Most people walk faster than that!

Even though I had a thought to quit, I pushed through hoping that soon my feet will be able to keep a run going.

The fast run fills me with hope!

God is getting ready to start using me more!

I am getting stronger again!

I’m not the only one with battles, what kind of Battles have you tackled?

Is the battle to for health easy or does it feel as if the world is against you?

Have you succeeded?

If so, have you found the need to return to the fight?  

God is so very Good!

God Bless each of you with strength growing no matter your age. Keep moving in Jesus. Amen!

The Wrong Question

                             Did I DO Good?

                                   am i   ENOUGH? 

This morning/noon when I woke today, I asked,

“I did Good? You are happy with me?”

Then I realized, it has NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!

IT IS ALL ABOUT JESUS!

AND HOW GOOD HE IS!

 IT IS THE LOVE OF GOD!

This has much to do with the way my body works. I have had intestinal issues, since?

My whole life?

After 2013 when I started to run better and get stronger God started to help my intestines to work as they are suppose to, most of the time.

The year to the day after Mom’s death I had a colonoscopy scheduled. Waiting to be called I checked Facebook memories and saw, “Mom died.”  Then they called my name.

My doctor said, “I could only get 5 centimeters!”

Ever since then, he has decided I need to have surgery.

BUT, My body is working better now than  in my whole entire life.

He did set me up for an X-ray test that showed everything is perfect.

What it shows is how emotions damage our bodies.

When my intestines are working well it probably means I am relaxed, spending time with God, exercising, and eating well.

But my thoughts have always been, I DID GOOD? are YOU PLEASED WITH ME?

I NEED TO GET my thoughts about me less and less and

GROW THE THOUGHTS ABOUT GOD AND WHAT HE HAS DONE! 

I need to say THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME AND HEALING ME!

When I first RECEIVED the LOVE OF GOD, I tried to make a song and all I could come up with is God is Good! God is Good! God is Good!

This has been my thing for 45 years GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

AND HE LOVES US ALL SO VERY MUCH! 

Receive Him! Ask Jesus for help and guidance in life and obey! Amen!

Beauty of God’s Creation

After 2 days of sleeping I ran 6 miles!

Do you ever stop to enjoy the beauty of outside?

For ten years my husband and I used to walk at sunset to catch the changing sky. Many times my husband would get upset because he wanted to walk with me while I kept stopping to get the next shot.

My run is slower than desired because I keep seeing another wonderful sight. This is also the first time to try out my new phone with a better lens.

Why do I mention sleeping for two days before running six miles? This has much to do with scoliosis and the rod holding my spine up. Sitting up at the computer to write these stories exhaust my muscles. Some days I need to give into the pain and rest, which took two days this time.

It is the first time in five years to run 6 miles. The two days of rest have something to do with the ability to run. It wasn’t fast and it was made slower by my desire to stop and take pictures.  I would have taken more pictures but my hands froze with the strong NW wind.

It was the first time in a while to see the sun!

 

I enjoy watching how the wind sculptures the snow and the sun changes the color of the snow!

Growing up in North Dakota there are few trees with plenty of open spaces that become covered in snow, so I learned to enjoy snow sculpted by wind! 

 

It taught me to appreciate flat beauty.

Does anyone else enjoy the pictures?

How many want to go out into the frigged temperatures to take the pictures?

One of the things God is teaching me is to keep Good thoughts on my mind.

Beauty is a good thought!

Philippians 4:8-9 Finally Brothers and Sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable,–if there is any virtue and if there is anything worthy of praise–Dwell on These Things!

What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me–put these things into practice, and the God of Shalom, Peace, will be with you!

Doing this has kept my mind in a much better place. It also helps me understand if my thought is from God or elsewhere. I ask myself if it is a good thought to think on and if not I ask God to fill my mind with His thoughts! Amen.

God Bless each of you who read this. Amen!

 GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Dark and Cold

Being asked for a second time,

“Are you OK?”

Is it a strange question?

Some think it is crazy to be out in the dark during inclement weather. But the area I live is safe as any and God is watching over me.

I move when I am able!

In case you are wondering about the hours, life happens when my body is ready. Sometimes it takes until 10:00 P.M. for my body to recover from previous days and be ready to move.  

Most people hide inside during the extreme weather but the only weather that truly stops me is lightning. My husband understands when my body is able to run I will go outside in wind, rain, sun, blizzard, freezing temperatures, and extremely hot temperatures.

Last year it was a police man who stopped after spotting me. He asked,

“Are you OK, or do you need help? No one else is out anywhere.”

It was a cold winter evening and I remember stepping in slushy ice-water which filled my shoe, sending me home to trade for dry shoes.

Yesterday, I was running Charlie and a vehicle stopped at the stop sign and was waiting for me.  After waving him on, he rolled down his window to ask,

“Do you need help?”

Maybe they see how slow I am running with Charlie? It is almost running in place, but it makes Charlie feel like he is able to run still.

The spot this man stopped to ask his question is the same space I see vehicles stop and pause for longer than I feel comfortable, sometimes I change my route because I’m not sure of their intent.

I am trusting God to change my reactions from tragic to concern: from kidnapping to do you need help?

It is a good thing that people are willing to help if I am truly needing help and have no where to go. I’m sorry I do things so different from norm and cause people concern.

God Bless each of you! Amen.

GOD IS STILL GOOD! AMEN.

I started this story December 13, 2025 and today February 19, 2026 we had 60 degrees and sun! It was a good run!

Changing Hours

Frontier comes to set us up with less expensive WiFi!

IT is noon when the technician arrives and my husband wakes me from sound sleep. I am so tired my body cannot stay awake until he leaves then I text the choir director that it would be dangerous to drive because my body cannot stay awake. Sleep takes me until 10:00 P.M., it is strange to eat breakfast at midnight.

Most of my life sleep was normal from 10:00-6:00 with a 3 hour nap in the middle of the day. For the majority of my life I didn’t have the ability to stay awake after 10:00 P.M., because of  weakness.

Turning 50 with menopause my sleep becomes disrupted. I started to wake at 2:00 A.M. and stay awake until 5:00 A.M..

Simultaneously as I miraculously gain nerves which create muscles which gives my body the ability to gain strength, I am able to stay awake until midnight for the first time in my life.  Not going to bed before midnight takes care waking up in the middle of the night. (There is another story about midnight but that is for another time.)

Add in the driving back and forth to the West coast about 15 times in 5 years has trained my body to sleep at odd times.

A few years ago God taught me to stay awake and finish a story I was working on. He was telling me time doesn’t matter. A few times it stretched to 6:00 A.M..

Most of this time I have been waking in the late morning, but this last year as I am gaining my strength back, more sleep is needed. My wake time has stretched to 2:00-3:00 P.M., and maybe later.

It messes with my mind spending all my life waking at 6:00 A.M., and now my life is up side down going to bed at 6:00 A.M..

Every time I have tried to change it back it doesn’t stick.

But today God suggests He is switching my hours again.

I will let you all know about how God does in changing my hours back to more normal times.

Proverbs 16:9 The heart of a man Plans his course, but ADONIA, The LORD, directs his steps. Tree of Life Version.

It is now 2:00 A.M. and I have an hour to pray and read Bible and confess Truth!

God Bless each person reading with the LOVE OF GOD Filling your soul daily. Amen

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

Angles Keep Us Safe

Finishing my 5 mile run on snowy roads:

Sam and I are carefully jogging  home with a short 1/4 mile stretch on the street.

Turning on my light to show the vehicles we are here, please make room for us. As I  watch the vehicle approaching us, I hug the snowbank. Sam on the other hand hears a vehicle driving up behind on the other side and wants to bark at it leaning into the middle of the road.

As the first vehicle passes, I pull Sam back to me but he is not willing. Expecting the vehicle approaching us to move over or slow down just a bit, but I am taken by surprise seeing the lights bearing down on us with no regard for our safety. I throw myself into the snowbank and pull Sam as hard as I am able to get out of the way.

Thankfully God helped push Sam over to me as the vehicle passes very close. I have a vision of Sam fully in the road broadside with the lights bearing down quickly. How he didn’t get hit I don’t really know. I can still see Sam in the road with the vehicle approaching quickly!

But God is Good!

My husband’s reaction was a surprise, “No big deal. You are safe. That is what life it like today.”

Thanking God for keeping us safe!

God is Good! Amen.

Praying for the driver to be Blessed with Wisdom and Understanding of the people out there to keep everyone safe. Amen.

God Bless us with His Angels watching over each of us keeping us safe, in Jesus’ Blood! Amen.