Shame Exposed and WASHED by GRACE

Published on March 27, 2026 by inerLeave a comment

Eighteen years ago God set me free from Shame.

A question in a Bible Study about Isaiah 61:7 set me up for healing.

The question doesn’t use the word shame so I am taken-a-back seeing the word SHAME in my Bible. God takes me at that moment and sends me seeking to NAME my shame.

Tears rolling down my face, I recall an 8 years old girl being asked to stand in the boys bathroom and undress so he is able remember what I look like.

The second shame is all about the hospital and the scoliosis surgery before and after pictures and the process of being covered in a body cast.

God shows me my shame and asks me to give it to Him! As I give Jesus my shame He Fills me with His Joy and LOVE!

Isa 61:7 Instead of your shame, a double portion. Instead of disgrace they will sing for joy. Therefore in their land they will inherit a double portion; they will have everlasting joy.

In John 4, Jesus exposes the shame of the woman at the well. When her shame is exposed by Jesus, she leaves her water pot and runs to tell everyone she previously hid from, because of shame! But now being free from her shame she is free to tell everyone about Jesus!

I write emails to my mom and sister telling them how I HAVE BEEN SET FREE!

Shame shuts us down, keeps us hidden in the corners of life! Being set free from shame means all the mistakes or sins are just scars not open wounds. They are places God uses to us to help other people!

I invite everyone to ask Jesus to show you, your shame, to be set free!

He really does give a double portion in exchange for the shame! It is the best deal ever!

FATHER GOD BLESS us all with YOUR LOVE, JOY, and PEACE IN HOLY SPIRIT and IN JESUS THE SON.AMEN!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Accepting Grace

Published on March 17, 2026 by inerLeave a comment

God impressed upon me,

“It is time to start cleaning house.”

I know my house is dirty! Things are in boxes because we cannot find a place for them. Life has been hard for many years. My body is gaining the strength back that I lost the last 7 years.

Bonus: my body is becoming stronger than ever.

My trouble: pain wants control.

It is easier to lay down and watch TV than to push through and accomplish something.

To feel accomplished I finished a story and posted it. When I asked God if I did Good? He didn’t answer.

TO OBEY IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE!

1Samuel 15:22

This is what God is impressing upon me over and over this year. I understand I didn’t obey. He would have been happy if I had just emptied a basket of clothes or clean the bathroom.

Something in me understands, I messed up.

God doesn’t want me to get depressed and suffer because I messed up.

Jesus already paid!

I only need to receive the gift of Grace and Forgiveness and start over in the morning.

Something in me has shifted!

I Do Thank God for Forgiveness and receive His Grace and move on.

Another part of me shifted: the ability to obey quickly!

I have been hurt by authority figures in my life and rebelling has become a normal reaction before obeying.

God says, “Rebellion is as divination/witchcraft!” 1Samues 15:23

Today, I obeyed immediately! God is getting serious.

God shows me how I try to sacrifice because of my fear of obeying!

January 1, 2023 is a Sunday. God’s Spirit fills me making me feel like I am vibrating, then He asks.

“You know if you give a sacrificial offering on the first day of the year it will have greater A POWER!

I respond, “I know!”

Give the $100 bill from Christmas in your journal!”

I hunt and hunt and cannot find it.

God says, “You have a $100 in your wallet!”

I am paralyzed. I cannot make myself open my purse to get the money. A strange Fear of “what will people think,” keeps me from opening my purse!

All of a sudden the offering plate goes by, I put in my $1 and God’s Spirit lifts. The realization that a huge Blessing was missed because I couldn’t open my purse! Why!

God shows me years later: my fear is about running out of food!

Realizing I messed up, I tried to make it up and Gave $100 out of my food money for 5 weeks in the month of January until my husband said,

“We cannot give all our money!”

What God wants me to do is learn to Trust HIM!

KNOW HE IS GOOD!

HE WILL PROVIDE!

THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS YOU GIVE FREELY TO ME!

Run and Rest

Published on March 10, 2026 by inerLeave a comment

Running further equals more days of rest!

3m 3m r r 5m r r 5m r r 6m r r r r 6m r r r 5m r r r 6m r r r r 5m(mile 5 under 15mm)

This is my detective work. 3m=3miles r=rest

3. & 4. 7. 10. 13. 18. 23. 27. 4. Dates in February/March

I am trying to understand why I feel like I am doing so much more resting and recovering.

Do you understand my shorthand? The first two days of running were 3 miles which I am able to run daily. After running 5 miles my body seems to needs two days rest. After running 6 miles I need 3-4 days rest.

On Friday February 27, I start to run well, then my run turns into a run/walk for a long while. The run returns just before I pick up the dogs. My 6th mile was going to be my fastest when a policeman stops me. I guess he saw me crossing the road in the dark.

He says, “You should wear a vest with reflective tape because there are many crazy drivers today.”

The Month of March our church is showing the latest episodes of, “The Chosen.” After church we have a lunch to talk about what we watched. This adds hours of extra time sitting up which is hard on my scoliosis spine.

I enjoy talking about, “The Chosen!” It brings healing to my soul and opens my eyes to think differently.

Yesterday, we returned to Daylight Savings Time! Of course, Saturday night I couldn’t fall asleep giving me only 2 hours sleep before church! We had to be early to church for 9:15 choir practice, 10:00 church service, 11:30 “The Chosen,” then 12:30 time to talk about it and home at 2:00! Finally at home I sleep, wake, eat, then sleep, wake, eat, and repeat.

Today, Monday after DST, I wake wanting to run but my body doesn’t have it. I do take many naps.

I am wanting to get out and run well again! After running last Wednesday the 14:45mm I gain 2 pounds of muscle and everyone is noticing how I am able to stand up straight and tall again!

This fills me with HOPE!

Being in my 60’s I know God will help me gain my strength back like He helped me 15 years ago, but I am 15 years older. IT is a fight to keep HOPE ALIVE!

It has been 18 months since I walked out the door and received a KNOWING, God healed the UTI! Most of the 18 months has been doing the hard work and pushing myself with only a glimpse of success once and a while.

I NEED TO BE PATIENT, I am doing the work, I will get stronger, my house and yard will get clean and in order!

Remember God will give each of us strength to do what needs to be done when we ask.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

The Process of Growing Stronger

Published on March 6, 2026March 9, 2026 by inerLeave a comment

Fighting Battles that have already been won.

The year 2024 is filled with UTI’s after every run.

The reason probably has to do with pushing hard to regain the ability to run.

Fear of getting a blood infection stopped me from running each time. I had a blood infection 35 years ago and didn’t want a repeat. What I forgot is the danger is from a fever and running, so I quit fearing and got back to running.

My body has battled with UTI’s my whole life but drinking cranberry juice has always kept it under control. This year cranberry juice hasn’t been enough.

During every run the burning feeling shows up in the middle or end of the run. I confess healing in The Blood of Jesus, drink more juice, drink a gallon of water daily, and eventually go to the walk in clinic to get antibiotics. I hate knowing what my problem is and they think I couldn’t possibly know.

Listening to people while standing in line for my prescription, I hear about cranberry pills and apple cider pills to help the fight.

One day after a year of fighting this monthly, I walk out the door to run and,

I know God healed me.

The Battle is won!

It is so wonderful to run and be healed.

A year after being healed, the burn returns. The fight continues to keep the Healing these last months. Thankfully, I haven’t needed go to the doctor again. I am winning the fight!

February 2026, I ran 3 miles for the first days of the month then my runs grew to 5-6 mile runs. This increase of miles has grown the days of recovery, taking me by surprise.

Wednesday March 4, 2026, the battle of getting stronger is being won. I run 5 miles.

Mile one, 18 minutes; mile two, 19 minutes with dogs.

Miles 3,4, and 5 are me alone and the time shortens with every mile.

I run

Mile five

in 14:48mm.

This is the fastest run in 8-10 years! I made the choice to fight differently the last week of 2024, by starting to do at least one minute plank and 12 push-ups every night before bed. Strengthening my core to make running easier!

I know it has so much to do with obeying God by increasing the distance, no matter how well the run goes. The last run in February 2026, I ran 5 miles with only a run/walk, taking 20-22 minutes a mile. (In case you are wondering it takes more than 2 hours to run 5 miles at that speed) Most people walk faster than that!

Even though I had a thought to quit, I pushed through hoping that soon my feet will be able to keep a run going.

The fast run fills me with hope!

God is getting ready to start using me more!

I am getting stronger again!

I’m not the only one with battles, what kind of Battles have you tackled?

Is the battle to for health easy or does it feel as if the world is against you?

Have you succeeded?

If so, have you found the need to return to the fight?

God is so very Good!

God Bless each of you with strength growing no matter your age. Keep moving in Jesus. Amen!