A selfish soul transforms into a generous person!
One day, while working the 2nd shift at The Pony Soldier motel I order a pizza. It happens to be a day I’m training a new person. I do not allow the person have any of MY PIZZA! I NEED to bring the extra home to feed my husband.
I have no compassion for the person working with me who has not eaten all day.
This makes me cringe realizing how selfish or self protecting I am. Why I am not able feel the other person’s pain? Is my pain so large not to see others?
Other places selfishness shows up is when my husband wanted to give to church, I disagreed with him even though I am the strong Christian, praying and studying my Bible daily.
As a kid I spend $.25 for a Bazooka bubble gum and allow myself about a half to an inch to chew of the foot long gum. I need to save it in case I might not be able to buy it again.
When friends asked for a piece of gum, I give them exactly what I give myself and they call me stingy.
How does God breaks this fear of not enough?
A few years after my failure to share, we adopt our daughter and move across the country for employment. While Bart works out of the house, a neighbor sets me up to babysit a baby for $80 a week. Another neighbor asks me to let their dogs out every day for $25 a week.
One day while doing dishes I hear someone on the radio speak about tithing. My brain thinks that is $8 of my $80 of my food money! I cannot give away my food money!
That day, God takes away my babysitting job.
I catch on quickly and start putting away $2.50 from the money I am still making from dog sitting.
Soon, a mother wants me to watch her child who happens to be my daughter’s age of 3.5 years old. This mother doesn’t appreciate the $80 I am charging, she bumps it up to $90! Later, she calls back and bumps it up to $100 a week.
God gives enough money to tithe 10% and sill have $10 more than before!
Not only does God do this wonderful thing, but He gives me back the baby so I am earning $180 every week plus the dog money.
That is just s great story, Justine! I habe found God to be faithful in this area too!
Thank You!