Pain, Pain, Go Away!

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This was my Facebook post in 2020 saying:

“GOD IS WISE!”

Today, my abdominal muscles were screaming, so I curled up until the pain lessened.

Finally about 8:00 P.M., I was able to sit up. Putting on shoes with hope, I prepared to walk.

When my back muscles are tired, my walking compares to a sloth. Many days I get ready to walk and only go around the block, but some days I won’t even make the corner.

The craziness of my body is later in the evening my body will have recovered giving me the ability to walk or run miles.

Yesterday, when I felt able to sit up, I started to dress for walking.  But God suggest running. I ran 3 miles. Tonight I had no thought of running.

God’s Wisdom in giving me the back muscles first came with benefits, such as running and standing up straight.

Knowing this gives me patience with the pain. I know some great gain will be achieved with muscles in my abdomen.

I am so Blessed! God Is So Very Good!

 

 

 

 

When God Seems Silent

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I have been hearing from God and getting guidance on how to clean my house to running daily 2 miles.

What do I do when He isn’t doing what He used to do?

There have been He has been trying to Grow me and help me to push to do what I couldn’t do before.

Could there be something that He suggested and I didn’t actually do it?

Is He waiting for me?

Help Me Jesus!

Love You!

Healing Brings Change

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Jesus meets the man sick for 38 years He asks, “Do you wants to get well.”

The man gives excuses why he is not well. (John 5:1-7)

Jesus says, “Get up, pick up your mat, and walk.”

The man had been laying around for 38 years, obviously someone was bringing him food and water to survive.

But now, he was going to need to learn a trade.

Because God gave me 5 new vertebrae taking away 28 years of constant pain and nerves to give me muscle: I am in the process of learning a new trade. It started little.

 I asked, “God,Teach me how to clean my house.”

This sounds like a funny request, but I had been a slave to pain for so long I didn’t know how to start.  My eyes focused on an item, I Knew, pick it up and put it away.

Message received.

I needed to step up and do what I couldn’t do before.

God Is Very Good!

The Interesting Healing

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This strange body that I have is starting to confuse my husband.

For our almost 40 years of marriage my body has run hot, especially while sleeping. I would wake in the night and throw off the covers but keeping my legs covered.

One night I touched my back and found hot skin down to this line across my buttocks. It was amazing how cold skin below the line was in comparison .

That line appeared after back surgery the summer of my freshman year of high school. After turning 50 that line started to change when my nerves began reconnecting. (IT is all a miracle from God!)

The change is much like ink on a piece of paper and the attempt to erase it. As the eraser is rubbing, the ink line smears. This explains the sensation of my nerves.

I asked my doctor  about the heat and she compared it to quadriplegic not able to control their core temperature. I  have always thought the perfect coat would be one that had arms and no vest, especially when walking.

One day I asked a women what hot flashes were like. She described heat building from inside the core.

From that definition I have had hot flashes for 40 years and now that I am 60 they are almost gone. How weird is that?

God Is So Good!

How Words Can Stick

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I have been making meals for my family for 35 years. The gift of having everything ready at the same time has not been mine, but it has been okay.

Lately anxiety has made a claim on my dinner prep. I need the whole day to get my self together to make the meal.

Today I made fish, Rice, and asparagus. Frustration fills me, because the fish is (over) done and water still covers the rice. Turning off the oven but leaving the fish in it is my best option. The fish is dry and I am berating myself.

The stress grabs my attention. “God, What is going on?”

A care taking moment comes to mind. Dad gently says, “The potatoes were cold, the rest was good but, the potatoes were cold.”

This brought memories of my mom running hot water to heat the serving dishes and using the oven to keep food warm.

The question: How do I become set free from this anxiety? I know it might take time, But God Do Your Work! Love You! Thank You!

“Jesus Fill me with Your Peace and Confidence. Amen.”

God Is Very Good!

Being Filled with the Word

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When I first found the Love of God, I camped out in Philippians and started memorizing it. That didn’t work well, but The Word planted Itself in my soul.

Reading and meditating on the book of Philippians started to wash the brokenness and bring healing to my soul. It is this process that has filled me with Joy most of my days. Over time it also makes a fruit inspector.

We are not to judge each other, but to look for the fruit of the Spirit: Love, Joy, Peace, Long-suffering, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Meekness, and Self-control.

In a church we belonged to for a time, the women were about punishing their husbands and women’s lib, not walking in Love and Forgiveness.

The person I was at that time didn’t understand. One morning after church I sat by myself listening and wondering why their words and actions didn’t match up with the Bible?

This person I have become now understands everyone has a choice to submit or rebel.

The glimpse of God’s LOVE I saw and felt 40 years years ago has given me desiring to grow closer daily, so I submit. I do get selfish some, but my Desire to KNOW GOD AND HIS LOVE draws me to Submitting  and Walking in Thankfulness!

God is Very Good!

Loving My Neighbor

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Holy Spirit suggested I be out front in the flower garden as God set me up to being Jesus to my neighbor.

I heard a crash as the neighbor boy fell over on his new bike. He didn’t move until I checked on him, then he stood and picked his bike up. His training wheel was out of place and the cause of his fall.

I told them to wait as I went and grabbed our Ratchet set. Returning I tighten the bolt and checked the other side to keep him safe.

His little sister asked, “Why are you helping us?”

I said, “I’m your neighbor and that is what Jesus would do!”

She responded, “I like Jesus, He is everywhere!”

Why would she ask, “Why are you helping?” She is Three or four years old and she doesn’t expect people to help?

She is not the first person to ask, “Why are you helping me?” or  “Why did you stop to talk with me?”

I do hope people will join me and act to help when they see a need.

Philippians 2:3-4

Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit,

but with humility of of mind let each of us regard one another as more important than ourselves;

not merely looking our for our own personal interests, but also the interests of others.

My First Healing

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The year started with the Y2K scare and preparing to leave Florida for 2 acres of land in Kentucky. I wanted to wait for the New Year to be in a familiar place if everything went wild.

All of a sudden new pain made itself known making it difficult to sit or stand.

“God, how will I be able to care for 2 acres of land with this pain?”

God answered, “When you take your daughter to the radio station to give her tithe, ask them to pray for you.”

At the radio station, we walk in and to talk with the announcer, “God told me to ask you to pray for my healing. Will you?”

She prays.

Stepping outside, I ask God, “What’s up? I did what You said and nothing happened!”

God impresses upon me, “Jesus already paid! You do not need to pay! It is already done!”

Healing Happened Immediately! 

I remembered 10 years earlier a thought dropped into my mind, “I deserve pain for not listening to God” But God says different!

This new revelation gave me hope that someday God will take my rod out of my back. The rod still holds my back up, but God continues to heal many other areas.

God is very Good!

Words Matter

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I pray  prostrate each morning and evening “Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable to You oh LORD!” Psalm 19:14.

I add, “Put Your Words in my mouth,” because the words out of my mouth cause much trouble.

This verse correlates well with Romans 12:2

“Do not be conformed by this world but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may PROVE what the will of God is, that which is Good and acceptable and perfect.

This verse transformed my life.

I used to wash dishes looking out the window and say, “I did it again! I never get it right!”

But God, my favorite two words.

He taught me this Idea about Being the Righteousness of God and as I spoke this over my life adding “I am LOVED BY GOD! I am the Beloved! HE ACTUALLY LIKES ME!” My life started to change for the better.

I Choose Daily to Believe the Best and Confess Life Words, changing my life completely!

Walking in the Righteousness of God is a gift I receive when I believe Jesus. HE died on the cross to take all my ugliness and give me His Goodness and Righteousness.

It has everything to do with covenant. I will write more about this some other time. The thing to understand is God The Father sent His Son to pay for sin which separates people from God. Since He did this all we have to do is Receive the gift of His Righteousness and walk in it.

I suggested this to a friend. She told me how she stood taller and responded differently to people she interacted with, even difficult people were nicer. Her whole day was better because of the way she thought of herself.

It is not easy. It takes years, but nothing changes until someone decides to take the first step! Try it out and see how God thoughts change lives for the Good!

God Is Very Good.

My Testimony

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My first year of College I drove 50 miles home every weekend. I was not ready to be on my own.

The next summer the family moved 1500 miles away and I joined them. It did not go well so I returned to school and truly moved out, becoming independent of my parents!

My one friend from freshman year at UND attended a folk group. The desire to sing filled me and I joined her. The leader asked us to think of what we wanted the group to accomplish and return with our thoughts next meeting.

The unexpected happened when we closed in prayer. The revelation that they have something that I don’t have! “God, I want what they have!”

Holy Spirit Filled me that moment with LOVE and JOY that I have never know in my life.

He also Filled me with a hunger to study and know the Word of God .

The Paper I wrote talked about the Joy and Love I received and I wanted to tell everyone which continues today.

If any of you want this Joy, Peace, and LOVE Tell Jesus,

“I want what she has!”

God is so Very Good!