Month: February 2026

The Wrong Question

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                             Did I DO Good?

                                   am i   ENOUGH? 

This morning/noon when I woke today, I asked,

“I did Good? You are happy with me?”

Then I realized, it has NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!

IT IS ALL ABOUT JESUS!

AND HOW GOOD HE IS!

 IT IS THE LOVE OF GOD!

This has much to do with the way my body works. I have had intestinal issues, since?

My whole life?

After 2013 when I started to run better and get stronger God started to help my intestines to work as they are suppose to, most of the time.

The year to the day after Mom’s death I had a colonoscopy scheduled. Waiting to be called I checked Facebook memories and saw, “Mom died.”  Then they called my name.

My doctor said, “I could only get 5 centimeters!”

Ever since then, he has decided I need to have surgery.

BUT, My body is working better now than  in my whole entire life.

He did set me up for an X-ray test that showed everything is perfect.

What it shows is how emotions damage our bodies.

When my intestines are working well it probably means I am relaxed, spending time with God, exercising, and eating well.

But my thoughts have always been, I DID GOOD? are YOU PLEASED WITH ME?

I NEED TO GET my thoughts about me less and less and

GROW THE THOUGHTS ABOUT GOD AND WHAT HE HAS DONE! 

I need to say THANK YOU FOR LOVING ME AND HEALING ME!

When I first RECEIVED the LOVE OF GOD, I tried to make a song and all I could come up with is God is Good! God is Good! God is Good!

This has been my thing for 45 years GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

AND HE LOVES US ALL SO VERY MUCH! 

Receive Him! Ask Jesus for help and guidance in life and obey! Amen!

Beauty of God’s Creation

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After 2 days of sleeping I ran 6 miles!

Do you ever stop to enjoy the beauty of outside?

For ten years my husband and I used to walk at sunset to catch the changing sky. Many times my husband would get upset because he wanted to walk with me while I kept stopping to get the next shot.

My run is slower than desired because I keep seeing another wonderful sight. This is also the first time to try out my new phone with a better lens.

Why do I mention sleeping for two days before running six miles? This has much to do with scoliosis and the rod holding my spine up. Sitting up at the computer to write these stories exhaust my muscles. Some days I need to give into the pain and rest, which took two days this time.

It is the first time in five years to run 6 miles. The two days of rest have something to do with the ability to run. It wasn’t fast and it was made slower by my desire to stop and take pictures.  I would have taken more pictures but my hands froze with the strong NW wind.

It was the first time in a while to see the sun!

 

I enjoy watching how the wind sculptures the snow and the sun changes the color of the snow!

Growing up in North Dakota there are few trees with plenty of open spaces that become covered in snow, so I learned to enjoy snow sculpted by wind! 

 

It taught me to appreciate flat beauty.

Does anyone else enjoy the pictures?

How many want to go out into the frigged temperatures to take the pictures?

One of the things God is teaching me is to keep Good thoughts on my mind.

Beauty is a good thought!

Philippians 4:8-9 Finally Brothers and Sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable,–if there is any virtue and if there is anything worthy of praise–Dwell on These Things!

What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me–put these things into practice, and the God of Shalom, Peace, will be with you!

Doing this has kept my mind in a much better place. It also helps me understand if my thought is from God or elsewhere. I ask myself if it is a good thought to think on and if not I ask God to fill my mind with His thoughts! Amen.

God Bless each of you who read this. Amen!

 GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Dark and Cold

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Being asked for a second time,

“Are you OK?”

Is it a strange question?

Some think it is crazy to be out in the dark during inclement weather. But the area I live is safe as any and God is watching over me.

I move when I am able!

In case you are wondering about the hours, life happens when my body is ready. Sometimes it takes until 10:00 P.M. for my body to recover from previous days and be ready to move.  

Most people hide inside during the extreme weather but the only weather that truly stops me is lightning. My husband understands when my body is able to run I will go outside in wind, rain, sun, blizzard, freezing temperatures, and extremely hot temperatures.

Last year it was a police man who stopped after spotting me. He asked,

“Are you OK, or do you need help? No one else is out anywhere.”

It was a cold winter evening and I remember stepping in slushy ice-water which filled my shoe, sending me home to trade for dry shoes.

Yesterday, I was running Charlie and a vehicle stopped at the stop sign and was waiting for me.  After waving him on, he rolled down his window to ask,

“Do you need help?”

Maybe they see how slow I am running with Charlie? It is almost running in place, but it makes Charlie feel like he is able to run still.

The spot this man stopped to ask his question is the same space I see vehicles stop and pause for longer than I feel comfortable, sometimes I change my route because I’m not sure of their intent.

I am trusting God to change my reactions from tragic to concern: from kidnapping to do you need help?

It is a good thing that people are willing to help if I am truly needing help and have no where to go. I’m sorry I do things so different from norm and cause people concern.

God Bless each of you! Amen.

GOD IS STILL GOOD! AMEN.

I started this story December 13, 2025 and today February 19, 2026 we had 60 degrees and sun! It was a good run!

Changing Hours

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Frontier comes to set us up with less expensive WiFi!

IT is noon when the technician arrives and my husband wakes me from sound sleep. I am so tired my body cannot stay awake until he leaves then I text the choir director that it would be dangerous to drive because my body cannot stay awake. Sleep takes me until 10:00 P.M., it is strange to eat breakfast at midnight.

Most of my life sleep was normal from 10:00-6:00 with a 3 hour nap in the middle of the day. For the majority of my life I didn’t have the ability to stay awake after 10:00 P.M., because of  weakness.

Turning 50 with menopause my sleep becomes disrupted. I started to wake at 2:00 A.M. and stay awake until 5:00 A.M..

Simultaneously as I miraculously gain nerves which create muscles which gives my body the ability to gain strength, I am able to stay awake until midnight for the first time in my life.  Not going to bed before midnight takes care waking up in the middle of the night. (There is another story about midnight but that is for another time.)

Add in the driving back and forth to the West coast about 15 times in 5 years has trained my body to sleep at odd times.

A few years ago God taught me to stay awake and finish a story I was working on. He was telling me time doesn’t matter. A few times it stretched to 6:00 A.M..

Most of this time I have been waking in the late morning, but this last year as I am gaining my strength back, more sleep is needed. My wake time has stretched to 2:00-3:00 P.M., and maybe later.

It messes with my mind spending all my life waking at 6:00 A.M., and now my life is up side down going to bed at 6:00 A.M..

Every time I have tried to change it back it doesn’t stick.

But today God suggests He is switching my hours again.

I will let you all know about how God does in changing my hours back to more normal times.

Proverbs 16:9 The heart of a man Plans his course, but ADONIA, The LORD, directs his steps. Tree of Life Version.

It is now 2:00 A.M. and I have an hour to pray and read Bible and confess Truth!

God Bless each person reading with the LOVE OF GOD Filling your soul daily. Amen

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

Angles Keep Us Safe

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Finishing my 5 mile run on snowy roads:

Sam and I are carefully jogging  home with a short 1/4 mile stretch on the street.

Turning on my light to show the vehicles we are here, please make room for us. As I  watch the vehicle approaching us, I hug the snowbank. Sam on the other hand hears a vehicle driving up behind on the other side and wants to bark at it leaning into the middle of the road.

As the first vehicle passes, I pull Sam back to me but he is not willing. Expecting the vehicle approaching us to move over or slow down just a bit, but I am taken by surprise seeing the lights bearing down on us with no regard for our safety. I throw myself into the snowbank and pull Sam as hard as I am able to get out of the way.

Thankfully God helped push Sam over to me as the vehicle passes very close. I have a vision of Sam fully in the road broadside with the lights bearing down quickly. How he didn’t get hit I don’t really know. I can still see Sam in the road with the vehicle approaching quickly!

But God is Good!

My husband’s reaction was a surprise, “No big deal. You are safe. That is what life it like today.”

Thanking God for keeping us safe!

God is Good! Amen.

Praying for the driver to be Blessed with Wisdom and Understanding of the people out there to keep everyone safe. Amen.

God Bless us with His Angels watching over each of us keeping us safe, in Jesus’ Blood! Amen.

Fear in Many Forms

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Driving in negative windchill fills my soul with dread.

Why?

Being raised in ND, driving and walking in -20 and-30 every winter is daily life.

I remember my fiance’s California vehicle stopping in traffic because the cold. (Vehicles in ND come with heating blocks to plug and warm the engine on cold nights, California vehicles do not) The extreme cold would cause the fuses to break in the panel. After a while we carried extra fuses fix it quickly.

Today I will run two miles in this weather, why does driving give me fear?

My blood pressure is rising, because I desire an answer that cowers to my fears.

What happened to PEACE? THE PEACE THAT PASSES UNDERSTANDING?

Perfect Love casts out fear. Who is in control? Love or Fear?

It doesn’t take long for me to understand I didn’t check and double check that I heard God correctly.

Instead I decided God is agreeing with me!

I announce to my husband God is saying church is canceled for the cold temperatures.

He said, “You are crazy!”

Church was not canceled and I was able to drive faster than most of the winter’s snowy days. It was a good service and I had enjoyable conversations. I’m glad I went!

I remember back when I learned this lesson the first time 25 years ago.

When the three of us were living in Florida, we adults wanted to return to the North country. One day, my husband receives a job offer from some lady in Chicago.

He asks,  “Pray for wisdom!”

I try to pray, but confusing excitement with an answer prematurely stops my prayer!

My desire to return to cold country overplays my desire for a true answer.

Telling my husband, “Yes!”

He calls the company and agrees to the job and hangs up.

But God has His way and fills my husband with an overwhelming dread until he calls them back and says,

“NO!”

The next week plays out about exactly the same

“Yes!”

“No!”

They call a third time.

“Yes!”

The final week my husband puts in writing his intent to leave and hands it to his boss.

God makes him feel so horrible that he humbles himself to ask for his job back.

“NO!”

If I truly sit down to pray, and push through all the excitement and dread TO PEACE I would have had the correct answer.

Thankfully God has the ability to really make us understand the trouble we are in. I have no idea what God did to make my husband know he had to say “NO!” after saying “yes.” But God did.

Again today, (a week later,) I woke with the temperature of -5 degrees. We are singing in the choir for church and need to be an hour earlier. When do they decide if the church is open.  Fearing what the roads could be like, I text the choir director to find out the church is open. The roads are good and I an able to drive the speed limit.

Does some of this fear come with older ages?

Or is it just life?

Am I Taking my eyes Off Jesus?

Help me get my passion back Jesus, so I walk in LOVE with NO fear!

God Bless us all with The LOVE OF JESUS! AMEN.

Confusion

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Have you ever had a day you thought was a day of rest, but it wasn’t?

Waking up today, recovering from yesterday’s long busy day. I am relaxing. All of a sudden I get a message popping up on my phone saying counseling appointment at 4:00!

Looking back for weeks I cannot find my last appointment, I’m at a loss? My brain isn’t working to explain why I don’t remember.

After sending an email to my counselor, but before getting a response I make the phone call confirming the appointment is real.

Quickly I get dressed and go to my appointment.

Driving, thanking God for the good roads and praying that God watch over everyone on the road, I am wondering what my new insurance is going to cover?

Just then an old song comes on the radio from Casting Crowns. I recognize it but don’t remember the words. As I listen, I hear God speaking to my soul, bringing Peace.

GOD IS WITH ME!

HE HAS THIS!

When I finally see my counselor, she reminds me we met on a Monday. It was a makeup day for the day she missed because of sickness. It all makes sense.

Just yesterday I am talking with a friend,

“I have started thinking maybe I don’t need counseling anymore.”

She says, “The counseling is helping you!”

I believe she is speaking God’s thoughts.

I need to remember, God will pay for what He knows I still need.

IT IS ALL ABOUT TRUST!

Who do I trust? God my provider and protector, King of the Universe, or the devil who has lost the fight.

Perfect LOVE casts out fear!

There is no fear in LOVE; but perfect LOVE casts out fear, because fear involves punishment and the one who fears isn’t perfected in LOVE. 1 John 4:18 NASB

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

TRUST AND BELIEVE HE IS GOOD AND DOES GOOD!

HE MAKES ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD! AMEN.

God Bless us all with safe travels in the winter weather. Amen.