God impressed upon me,

“It is time to start cleaning house.”

I know my house is dirty! Things are in boxes because we cannot find a place for them. Life has been hard for many years. My body is gaining the strength back that I lost the last 7 years.

Bonus: my body is becoming stronger than ever.

My trouble: pain wants control.

It is easier to lay down and watch TV than to push through and accomplish something.

To feel accomplished I finished a story and posted it. When I asked God if I did Good? He didn’t answer.

TO OBEY IS BETTER THAN SACRIFICE!

1Samuel 15:22

This is what God is impressing upon me over and over this year. I understand I didn’t obey. He would have been happy if I had just emptied a basket of clothes or clean the bathroom.

Something in me understands, I messed up.

God doesn’t want me to get depressed and suffer because I messed up.

Jesus already paid!

I only need to receive the gift of Grace and Forgiveness and start over in the morning.

Something in me has shifted!

I Do Thank God for Forgiveness and receive His Grace and move on.

Another part of me shifted: the ability to obey quickly!

I have been hurt by authority figures in my life and rebelling has become a normal reaction before obeying.

God says, “Rebellion is as divination/witchcraft!” 1Samues 15:23

Today, I obeyed immediately!  God is getting serious.

God shows me how I try to sacrifice because of my fear of obeying!

January 1, 2023 is a Sunday. God’s Spirit fills me making me feel like I am vibrating, then He asks.

“You know if you give a sacrificial offering on the first day of the year it will have greater A POWER!

I respond,  “I know!”

Give the $100 bill from Christmas in your journal!”

I hunt and hunt and cannot find it.

God says, “You have a $100 in your wallet!”

I am paralyzed. I cannot make myself open my purse to get the money. A strange Fear of “what will people think,” keeps me from opening my purse!

All of a sudden the offering plate goes by, I put in my $1 and God’s Spirit lifts. The realization that a huge Blessing was missed because I couldn’t open my purse! Why!

God shows me years later: my fear is about running out of food!

Realizing I messed up, I tried to make it up and Gave $100 out of my food money for 5 weeks in the month of January until my husband said,

“We cannot give all our money!”

What God wants me to do is learn to Trust HIM!

KNOW HE IS GOOD!

HE WILL PROVIDE!

THANK YOU JESUS FOR YOUR RIGHTEOUSNESS YOU GIVE FREELY TO ME!