I ask God all the time, “Did I Do Good?”
This comes from the many times I have done exactly what was expected and end up in trouble.
Living in the house of our new dad, I am in trouble for plugging the Christmas lights into the outlet. I am 10 years old.
Our weekly job is to oil the teak furniture. Looking for the approval I go into Dad’s office and oil the teak desk. I am very careful to pick everything up to oil under it and not move anything out of place.
When he arrives home and I tell him of the good job I did.
He responds, “HOW DARE YOU TOUCH MY STUFF!”
It is confusing because the whole house is his and we are ironing his underwear and polishing his shoes.
Eleven years later, after my accident when they finally allow me to leave, the doctor tells me,
“Do not put your foot down until I see you!”
I am staying at a house of a friend’s parents. When they take me to the doctor’s office, the first thing he says is,
“Why are you still on crutches!”
This makes the people I’m staying with think I am trying to get sympathy.
I believe the doctor realizes his mistake but doesn’t say anything. Instead he gets busy measuring my broken pelvic bones and how far they moved.
He says, “You lost half an inch on your left side.”
There are so many other times I am in trouble for obeying.
What I need is healing.
Jesus is the Biggest Healer.
He is able to heal this open wound.
I know He Accepts me and is Proud of me every time I try!
Is this a daddy wound I need healed?
Psalm 27:10 my father and mother have forsaken me, But The LORD will take me up.
The meaning behind this is He is picking me up and adopting me because my parents cannot do what I need them to do.
Psalm 27:11 Teach me Your way, O LORD, and Lead me in a level path because of my foes.
There were years I spoke this out loud every time I got into my vehicle to drive somewhere. Why? I don’t know, it came up out of my spirit to protect me from what ever was out there. It didn’t occur to me that it was in the 27th Psalm.
God does heal especially when we ask. Sometimes it is immediate but other times it is slowly over time.
Maybe just maybe what this is about is becoming the adult that I am suppose to be and not cowering when confronted by an authority figure.
God has been working on this and telling me,
I AM WORTHY!
I AM WORTHY TO BE LOVED!
I HAVE ENOUGH WORTH TO ASK FOR HELP!
Does my story flow?
Do you understand it?
Is this a way God brings healing as we walk through questioning things, and realize other things are true that each of us has WORTH!
GOD IS SO VERY GOOD! GOD BLESS EACH PERSON WHO READS AND UNDERSTANDS. AMEN.