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Revelation and Snow

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Question: How have you worked through being Kidnapped?

Answer: Never have.

Now months later as I am writing a story God is exposing the reason I have such a hard time leaving my house to go to the store or on a trip or even an outing.

It all has to do with feeling safe at home and not so much out in the world.

This is a revelation and it makes sense but it will take time to heal. It is amazing how ten years ago God gave me the ability to go to Joyce Meyer’s Women’s Conference by myself and to volunteer at other events.

The last few years as my strength shut down so did my courage to go out into the world. I am believing it is coming back also.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Do you enjoy winter pictures? I do! so enjoy!

God Bless you With HIS Joy!

Hope Grows

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Twice God put people in my path for encouragement.

Running in the cold wind and dropping temperatures, I’m thinking this is the last row and it is time to go home. Just as I start to run the row a vehicle pulls up making me wonder what are they doing.

I do keep my eyes open to what is going on around me because a vehicle has followed me in the past.

The day before while I am running, a vehicle drives in and parks behind bushes without me noticing, to hide?

It is in the left side of this picture.

Running past the bushes I am shocked to see the vehicle sitting there. I watch and take pictures because the person is not acting normal like putting flowers on a grave or moving at all. At one point the man gets out of the vehicle as if motioning to someone ahead.

Thankfully my husband brings the dogs so taking Sam I am comfortable to run past the vehicle that sat there for an hour?

Running on snow and ice is time consuming.

 

This is an icy spot, you can see where a vehicle spun out on ice and I slipped myself.

 

 

 

 

 

After changing dogs I notice the vehicle is gone. What was this guy doing there for so long? Was he waiting for me to leave for some reason?

This is why I wonder about vehicles parking as I run.

But today, as I approach the vehicle the door is open. My goal is to figure out how to get around it without stepping into the deep snow, just then she shuts the door for me to get by. The lady and her husband are putting out Christmas decorations at cemeteries.

Starting up a conversation about the weather as I tell her how God has healed me so I am able to run and gain strength. Then life shut it down for a bit, but now my running is returning.

She understands about life because she is about my age. I offer her information about this blog and she is interested. The stupid thing happened when I try to show her the site. My phone updated overnight and it is difficult to figure out how to get off of amazon to justfullofgrace.org as we  stand in the cold wind. Finally it does what is needed and she is able to see it.

Most of the people I talk to who are my age or older don’t have any desire to be on a computer, but she was willing to wait for me to fine it and show her in this freezing wind.

The next thing that happens is while ordering collagen from TBN/Ancient Nutrition I receive a discount of $5 for being the first person to call. The interesting part is I was not watching TBN at the time but looking up the last time I ordered it. So, I just happened to call at the moment they are expecting many to make the call.

It took me a minute to understand what was happening but then I offered to tell the phone clerk about justfullofgrace.org.

He looks it up and says, “It’s in the first place on Google.”

Years ago an older woman tried to find my site and and found a musician, this is why I try to show it to people I am talking to.

Why is this exciting?

Back 40 years ago I realized people I was with had something I didn’t have. I asked God for what they had and He FILLED ME WITH LOVE, JOY, PEACE, AND A DESIRE TO STUDY SCRIPTURE.

After being offered to Satan and being bullied my thoughts were very dark, but God started invading my thoughts with Good God thoughts.

My response has always been to tell everyone about how God filled me; most of my life I have been more like a bull in a china shop, overwhelming people.

But God has been refining me, teaching me how to be softer and not so demanding. I don’t really know how, but somehow people seem to be wanting more instead of pushing me away. It is a good thing.

Just for fun! This is a picture that reminds me of growing up in ND. I love the drifting snow but it does make running a driving more difficult.

God Bless each of us with heat and protection in these cold winter months. 

 

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

It’s Time to Start

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For 8 years my Brother-in-law has been telling me,

“Now is the time to start doing videos!”

A few months ago I decided I didn’t need to do videos because I haven’t felt God really giving me the desire. THE NEXT SUNDAY the visiting preacher remembers me and says,

“You need to start doing videos!”

A week ago, while getting my oil changed the 21 year old attendant tells me,

“People my age need to hear what you have to say.

You need take videos and put them on YouTube, just tilt your phone up, take a video of yourself, and upload it to the app on your phone.”

Hearing from many young adults out in the world, I realize it’s time to really take this seriously.

Talking to God about this I am trying to understand how to start.

God says, “Start at the beginning!”

Talking with a mother of a teen for advice.

She says, “No videos over 2 minutes”

Now is the time to talk with the church leaders to see if they are willing to help me learn this craft or if anyone wants to go on this ride with me and Holy Spirit.

God Bless each of us with His LOVE, JOY, AND PEACE DAILY! Amen!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

 

Strength Returning

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 Twelve inches of snow fall overnight.

We end up with over 16 inches of snow over the last 3 days,

but the driveway is cleared each day by my husband.

 

 

 

 

 

 

He was up shoveling today before I’m up, but he does wake me to say,

“You should see how how fast and hard the snow is coming down!”

This is what was done before I start to shovel.

My husband did more up by the garage then down by the street.

He left the street for me not knowing if I was going to be able to shovel, but God did! God knows I enjoy the stuff by the street.

Today, I knew I would be able to shovel which is miracle.

Running in the snow and wind has made me strong enough to believe I am able to shovel.

The running I have been doing 3 of the last 4 days in wind, snow, and cold shows me running is returning to an everyday occurrence as it was 10 years ago! God is so Very Good!

My husband has been doing all the shoveling for the last few years because I couldn’t anymore. And even this year with all the running accomplished, I had no thought of being able to shovel! So, knowing I am able to shovel 12 inches today is a miracle happening in real time!

Knowing it is warm outside I put on boots, mittens, and cover a tee-shirt with a sweatshirt. With each shovel load I pick up 12 inches of snow and throw it over to the grassy area.

The snow is a bit on the wet side and it is sticking to my hair and hat. Inside I find the back of the sweatshirt has been soaked by the wet snow.

My shoveling widens the path already done and I also make it across the bottom of the driveway where the plow adds extra snow. I cross over to the mailbox, clearing it for the mail truck to drive up to the box. Knowing it is time to go inside for water, I see our neighbor finish the driveway with their snowblower.  I have the desire to go back out and finish it for my pride  but I am thankful.

Our driveway is over 50 feet long and it is double wide. Ten years ago I was able to shovel the whole thing. I am believing it is possible again. There is a shift happening again.

Fifteen years ago when God gave me the new bones and nerves I asked Him to show me how to clean house and He did. It is time again to ask God for help stepping out into the future He has planned for me.

God Bless each of us with Wisdom and Courage to do what needs to be done wisely. I also ask God to Bless us with Strength to do more than we know.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

First Winter Storm

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Of course, I am out running in our first winter storm!

Somehow my body isn’t willing to get moving when the weather is nice and 40 degrees and sun. It is always ready to move when it is hot or humid or freezing and blowing wind.

The wind is blowing 20-30 mph with snow coming in bands off the lake. There are times I need to put my mitten up to protect my face from the wind and frostbite.

Are you surprised I see no one else out here!

I dressed appropriately in layers and layers. It feels like 20 degrees so I put on double pants and socks with 4 layers on top and the hood of the sweatshirt tied the hat down tight.

Thankfully, God showed me where to find my neck piece. It keeps my neck warm without the bulk of a scarf. The temperature has been cold enough and I have looked everywhere but my neck piece was nowhere to be found. Then one day, I saw a piece of it sticking out from under a piece of fabric. God is so Good!

It is strange to wear the hat with the bill all winter but I find the bill blocks out almost all of the light when I run in the dark. It does help keep the snow off my glasses or out of my eyes to some degree. When the rain is coming it is very helpful.

I did run 3 miles in the open West wind. There was a calm point just before the last big wind and a shift to more NW wind. Getting home I offer each dog once around the block. It is a bit warmer since the wind is slightly blocked by the houses in town.

The run did take more out of me than I expected. Getting my strength back is important and getting my weight back down to fit into most of my clothes is also important.

It feels so good to be able to run when all summer I could only do a run/walk for the whole 2 miles at the cemetery. It was a bit embarrassing to not be able to run. But now I am running at a good pace some times and each time I go out it gets better.

Exercise is so important to life. Getting up and moving as often as possible is good for our bodies to feel better. It lifts our spirits to get outside even in the winter.

God Bless each of us with the ability to move and get stronger each and every day. Amen.

I do have days I cannot get off the couch but my body recovers and is up and moving soon after.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

 

The Blessing of “Forgive Me”

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Introducing myself to our new neighbors as I do,

she responds:

“I don’t want to hear anything about God!”

From that point on I have no idea how to talk with Pam, our new neighbor. I wave when I see her, but she never responds.

One day I decide to visit our common neighbor, Donna.  Going over to say hi, I find Pam sitting on the couch. For a while we sit in silence until Pam tries to start a conversation.

“I’ve quit eating chocolate.”

Donna responds, “I have also quit eating chocolate.”

God gave me the perfect response,

“I have found the most wonderful thing called, chocolate bark.”

But I keep my mouth shut! What am I afraid of? rebuke ? anger?

Pam departs saying, I know you watch me visit and come over when I leave.

I respond, “Once, only one time did I see you leave.

This was our relationship for 10 years.

This last month I was bringing a tomato over for her husband.

He had knee surgery.

Pam answers the door.

Surprised to see her at the door, words tumble out of my mouth!

“Forgive me, I have had no idea how to talk with you because you don’t want to hear about God.”

I did go on and give some of my backstory of why I act the way I do.

Pam responds much better than I expect.

The next time we meet at the mailbox,

Pam asks, “How are you doing?” 

She smiles at me.

It is such a change and all I did was apologize.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Good Signs

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Rain today but yesterday shining sun!

Today I knew if running was happening it would be late. It did happen at 10:00 P.M.! It was not fast or easy but it was a successful 1.5 miles run with 1/2 mile walk.

It was a Blessing to have Sam decide he was willing and able to run with me. He even wanted to run faster than I did. All I had to do was offer, “treat” and he came willingly. I didn’t even have to give him the treat, he came with just the mention of it.

We had baked potatoes with roast beef and salad for dinner. I made my salad and put the roast slices on my salad and had a potato on the side. This is a picture of how most of my salads look. It often takes me an hour or two to eat it but it does give me energy!

My body enjoys eating this salad.

The reason I mention this is for years I have had problems swallowing especially meat. It got to the point I was dreading the thought of eating.

It has much to do with bad thoughts that close up my esophagus just before food reaches my stomach. Some day I will talk more about this, but today eating was enjoyable! There was no thought of any problem. I was able to just eat and enjoy the food like I used to. God is so very Good!

Yesterday, my body kicked in for me to go out at 4:00 P.M. and the sun sets at 5:30. The temperature was at 45 degrees when I started and dipping into the 30’s as I pack up.

It is interesting what I start out to do and what actually gets done. You can kinda see the little sprouts of grass sticking up in all the dark dirt. I know I need to get as much of this cleaned out so when I put flowers and bulbs into this area it doesn’t fill up with grass.

This picture is a two day process of cleaning it out and adding brick to make a boundary of what is done and not done.


 

 

 

This is the section I went after to clean up that I had no thought of before I started to work.

 

Basically pulling dead flowers and finding the grass that started growing underneath the flowers.

 

I have never not gotten the bulbs back into the ground before winter takes over. So I am taking every chance that I have to take back my garden. My hope was to finish before fall but that is gone so it is do what I am able each day.

 

 

Strength is returning with each day I keep at it.

GOD BLESS US ALL WITH THE LOVE OF GOD FILLING EACH CELL IN OUR BODIES BRINGING HEALING! AMEN.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Working The Flowerbed

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Trying to beat the cold weather and finish the flowerbed.

This week has been one where my body shut down after accomplishing much last weekend. Knowing there is not much time left I decide to weed the easy part that has been taken care of for a couple of years. This is the area I planted flowers this late summer.

I will pull the Zinnia’s that have frozen with the freeze and snow!

It does also have the sun shinning where I am going to sit. Learning about sunshine and how good it is I do stand in the Autumn sun for my face to absorb the goodness. I am Thankful the sun is also shining on the spot I am choosing to weed.

 

 

 

Charlie chose to come outside with me as I weed! Yeah! He used to come out with me as I worked in the yard most of his life. He used to go smelling everywhere but now he sits with me and watching and hoping to see another dog.

Charlie is getting older, some days he sleeps quite a bit and other days he will actually walk/run with me at a slow pace for a mile. It is good to have him join me outside and sit with me as I clean out this small area.

The goal is to do something when able. 

Sometimes the little bit of weeding will turn into a much bigger project as my body starts to move. Other times like this day, I do a little bit and am thankful to have the ability to move.

In this picture are daisy plants growing  and Marigold flowers that were frozen but I was not able to clear that area before it got dark. It takes a bit of work to get the full root connected to each weed especially when they are so small.

GOD BLESS EACH OF US WITH 

THE LOVE OF GOD

FILLING EVERY CELL IN OUR BODIES

BRINGING ENERGY FROM GOD!

AMEN.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

 

 

 

Getting Better!

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My run today was successful!

It is amazing!

Yesterday, was a day off, I needed rest!

My body was exhausted making my ability to walk around the house difficult. My walk becomes very slow and to turn my body pauses to think about how.

Resting yesterday gave me the ability to run today! The temperatures are in the 40’s and the sun is out, making it easier to run.

The snow and cold temperatures have stripped most of the trees of their leaves and the wind helped. Today, while running the wind tried to take my hat. It surely was a day to keep my head down.

My run started out at 13 mm but soon the wind and my tired body slowed down so my two miles end up at a 16mm & 17mm! Much better than last January at 20-22mm!

This flag shows the wind while running!

The rising temperatures melted the snow.

 

 

 

The day of rest, gave me the ability to go to choir practice without pain. God Is So Very Good!

I am writing this because for some reason God wants me to tell my real life struggles.

Today, after running and going to choir practice my back muscles started seizing up. Sitting  probably worked on my back muscles and shut them down tonight.

This shutting down is different. It is a single thread of muscle going straight down my back, seizing up. This means is my head has no ability to look down or side to side.

My eyes get a great workout when this happens.

Today, I have described two different ways scoliosis shuts my body down. The first is making walking difficult. The second one I am able to walk but my it really feels like I am in my body cast again not able to turn my head.

Hopefully, by Friday, I am strong and pain free so I am able to take advantages of the warmer temperatures to plant the tulip bulbs again. The time is up to get them in the ground.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE WITH A BLESSED DAY FILLED WITH THE LOVE OF GOD!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Payment Due

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Back and neck muscle are rebelling!

The 24 hours of work (running 6 miles, moving furniture, and vacuuming) are taking their toll today.

My muscles are shutting my body down. After some rest I will be able to make food, eat, and hopefully walk later on. The muscles did fine during church today! Standing to Praise God and sitting to listen to the sermon went well. I was even awake and alert!

After church the muscles said, “Enough!”

Back in my 40’s I learned the 24-48 hour window is when muscles start to fully come asking for payment! It baffled me for a while because I thought it was the next day that muscles felt the work. Does it take longer to really feel aches and pains as we age?

My husband and I did walk 1.5 miles to get our 10,000 steps. But before we start walking, we check the weather app to find Winter is entering  our neighborhood, now.  We need to dig out warm gloves, hats, and boots.

I’m heading to bed early to rest my muscles so I am able to go to Prayer Meeting in the morning. Last week my body couldn’t move and I missed our Prayer Meeting.

There are some things that need to happen like rest so here I go. God Bless!

Leaving some pictures from the walk we had today!

GOD BLESS each of us with healing and pain relief.             Hopefully all is well with each of you as Winter enters and Autumn departs.

Oh Yeah, I picked my lemon from my tree. I gave my first two for first fruits offering and this will be my first one to try. It is much larger than what I buy at the store.

 

GOD BLESS all who read this with The LOVE OF GOD and THE JOY OF THE LORD Filling every cell in your body, bubbling up and overflowing to all those around you!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD, GOOD, GOOD!