TRUTH: Exposing dark thoughts to the light strips it of it’s  power.

The Bible says to confess to each other and be healed.

James 5:16 Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The effective prayer of a righteous person can accomplish much.

I don’t believe what I’m bringing to the light is a sin but a byproduct of child abuse and being used as an offering to Satan at 7 years old.

Listening to Dr. Phil interview victims of trafficking, somehow connects with my broken brain/soul. What they describe becomes a vivid picture in my brain from that day forward. Every once and a while the pictures invades my life for no known reason. The most joyful day could be interrupted by these horrible pictures to torture me.

How do these pictures plant themselves into my brain when no other picture ever enters is a question maybe God will answer sometime. One day a preacher talks about everyone being able to sees a picture in their mind. If someone says, “dog” you see a dog. It doesn’t work for me, telling me I’m different.

For many years the knowledge of being set free is kept from me.

Over time I start to think about telling someone, but being responsible for them having these pictures in their mind stops me.

But God, He gives me an idea.

I choose to tell my counselor.

Opening my mouth, THE PICTURE DISAPPEARS!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

 

Today, God is explaining what went on two years ago!

Sitting in church paralyzed by fear of what others might think if I dig in my purse for an offering.

Sunday, January 1, 2023, God covers me in His Glory asking, “Do you realize the power of giving on the first day of the year?”

“Yes, I do!”

“Give the $100 bill you received as a Christmas gift.”

I am looking in my journal where I put it and cannot find it!

Then God suggests, “You have a $1oo in your wallet for food, use that!”

Sitting there frozen. I cannot move.

Why can’t I grab it? I’ve done this before?

Too fast the offering plate arrives and I put in my normal $1 and The Glory of God lifts off of me and I want to scramble to obey, but the moment is gone and I know it!

I don’t understand why I didn’t obey?

What difference does it make giving the one in my wallet for food or the one set aside as a gift?

God is exposing my greed, my need to protect MY food money. I am not trusting Him to provide for the food I need.

I know it comes from the choices my biological dad made which cause us to live in deep poverty.

LORD JESUS only You can set me free from my fear of not having enough!

Do What You Only You Can Do! Set me free!

It is interesting how we can Trust God with everything but keep one little area we don’t really know if we can trust Him with it yet?

Has anyone had a similar experience with God?

Have you ever asked God for answers about a situation and expected an answer?

God has answered some of my questions immediately and one question took 40 years for Him to give me a “Yes!” as I was eating breakfast in 2020. I knew exactly what the question was He was answering.

God Bless each and everyone who reads my stories. I hope and pray they help people realize God wants to be involved in every part of our lives to grow us into Christlike people!

GOD IS GOOD!