Working The Flowerbed

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Trying to beat the cold weather and finish the flowerbed.

This week has been one where my body shut down after accomplishing much last weekend. Knowing there is not much time left I decide to weed the easy part that has been taken care of for a couple of years. This is the area I planted flowers this late summer.

I will pull the Zinnia’s that have frozen with the freeze and snow!

It does also have the sun shinning where I am going to sit. Learning about sunshine and how good it is I do stand in the Autumn sun for my face to absorb the goodness. I am Thankful the sun is also shining on the spot I am choosing to weed.

 

 

 

Charlie chose to come outside with me as I weed! Yeah! He used to come out with me as I worked in the yard most of his life. He used to go smelling everywhere but now he sits with me and watching and hoping to see another dog.

Charlie is getting older, some days he sleeps quite a bit and other days he will actually walk/run with me at a slow pace for a mile. It is good to have him join me outside and sit with me as I clean out this small area.

The goal is to do something when able. 

Sometimes the little bit of weeding will turn into a much bigger project as my body starts to move. Other times like this day, I do a little bit and am thankful to have the ability to move.

In this picture are daisy plants growing  and Marigold flowers that were frozen but I was not able to clear that area before it got dark. It takes a bit of work to get the full root connected to each weed especially when they are so small.

GOD BLESS EACH OF US WITH 

THE LOVE OF GOD

FILLING EVERY CELL IN OUR BODIES

BRINGING ENERGY FROM GOD!

AMEN.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

 

 

 

Getting Better!

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My run today was successful!

It is amazing!

Yesterday, was a day off, I needed rest!

My body was exhausted making my ability to walk around the house difficult. My walk becomes very slow and to turn my body pauses to think about how.

Resting yesterday gave me the ability to run today! The temperatures are in the 40’s and the sun is out, making it easier to run.

The snow and cold temperatures have stripped most of the trees of their leaves and the wind helped. Today, while running the wind tried to take my hat. It surely was a day to keep my head down.

My run started out at 13 mm but soon the wind and my tired body slowed down so my two miles end up at a 16mm & 17mm! Much better than last January at 20-22mm!

This flag shows the wind while running!

The rising temperatures melted the snow.

 

 

 

The day of rest, gave me the ability to go to choir practice without pain. God Is So Very Good!

I am writing this because for some reason God wants me to tell my real life struggles.

Today, after running and going to choir practice my back muscles started seizing up. Sitting  probably worked on my back muscles and shut them down tonight.

This shutting down is different. It is a single thread of muscle going straight down my back, seizing up. This means is my head has no ability to look down or side to side.

My eyes get a great workout when this happens.

Today, I have described two different ways scoliosis shuts my body down. The first is making walking difficult. The second one I am able to walk but my it really feels like I am in my body cast again not able to turn my head.

Hopefully, by Friday, I am strong and pain free so I am able to take advantages of the warmer temperatures to plant the tulip bulbs again. The time is up to get them in the ground.

GOD BLESS EVERYONE WITH A BLESSED DAY FILLED WITH THE LOVE OF GOD!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Payment Due

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Back and neck muscle are rebelling!

The 24 hours of work (running 6 miles, moving furniture, and vacuuming) are taking their toll today.

My muscles are shutting my body down. After some rest I will be able to make food, eat, and hopefully walk later on. The muscles did fine during church today! Standing to Praise God and sitting to listen to the sermon went well. I was even awake and alert!

After church the muscles said, “Enough!”

Back in my 40’s I learned the 24-48 hour window is when muscles start to fully come asking for payment! It baffled me for a while because I thought it was the next day that muscles felt the work. Does it take longer to really feel aches and pains as we age?

My husband and I did walk 1.5 miles to get our 10,000 steps. But before we start walking, we check the weather app to find Winter is entering  our neighborhood, now.  We need to dig out warm gloves, hats, and boots.

I’m heading to bed early to rest my muscles so I am able to go to Prayer Meeting in the morning. Last week my body couldn’t move and I missed our Prayer Meeting.

There are some things that need to happen like rest so here I go. God Bless!

Leaving some pictures from the walk we had today!

GOD BLESS each of us with healing and pain relief.             Hopefully all is well with each of you as Winter enters and Autumn departs.

Oh Yeah, I picked my lemon from my tree. I gave my first two for first fruits offering and this will be my first one to try. It is much larger than what I buy at the store.

 

GOD BLESS all who read this with The LOVE OF GOD and THE JOY OF THE LORD Filling every cell in your body, bubbling up and overflowing to all those around you!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD, GOOD, GOOD!

Hope Renewed

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A year ago I couldn’t make myself get up and dust the TV!

Today I took the living room apart and tackled vacuuming behind, underneath and all around. Chasing spiders and setting furniture free!

Nine months ago I tried to do intermittent fasting but I could not figure out how to get all my food eaten in 6-8 hours.

God has mad a way for me to put off eating until after 5:00 P.M.! He has shown me I am able to do hard work digging up weeds and cleaning out the flowerbed or running 6 miles all without eating.

I believe this started last December when I realized I needed to build muscles to run rather than running to gain muscle. It was after Christmas 2024 I started to do at least one minute plank on the floor and at least 12 push-ups.

When I started doing the push-ups my arms were so weak I could hardly bend my elbows to go down a few inches. It took a few months but eventually my arms grew strong enough to go all the way down. At this point my muscles are able to do 30 push-ups.

Ten years ago at my peak, I was able to do 10 full body push-ups and finish the rest from my knees. I am not ready yet to do a full body push-up but hopefully soon.

Today is the first time in almost 10 years to run 6 miles!

The most exciting part of running 6 miles is the 2 miles at 15mm! I am getting stronger! God is so Good!

The last 2 miles I have dogs. Charlie is no longer the fast runner. Sam likes a soft jog.

For the last 40-50 years my body needed food especially protein to function. I ran on the food I ate because of the void of so many core muscles! After being cut in the surgeries, the nerves refused to grow back until God stepped in the 15 years ago and started them growing back!

I have heard more than once It looks like you can’t hold your head up. Or it looks like you can’t sit up. I had a rod to hold me up but no muscles.

But God does make changes and He wants us to do the work. I have to run. I have to dig. Also the muscle building in my lunges, planks, and push-ups to keep me strong enough to do everything!

The one thing I do is try to encourage people of all ages to exercise and build muscles. It is so important to enjoying life and live a long healthy life. God Bless each of us to move and build muscle!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD GOOD GOOD!

 

Tiny Roots

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God sent me to clean up what has already been done.

My goal for today was to wake up early and work in the flower garden. There is so much to do and not much sunlight, warmth, or dry weather to keep working.

I try to get all the roots but there are many little pieces of dead looking roots that come alive!

My desire is to clean up the mess that is thick with grass, but God obviously wants me to go after the small bits of grass roots to really clean the area

 

 

Arriving at the edge of the garden that butts up against the driveway I find it has become a 10 lane highway for the roots to travel! Some of the roots actually dig into the concrete!

God works in us is do a big clean up feeling like everything is new and good.

After a while He starts doing some detailed work that goes after a precise root that needs to come out to bring more freedom. It may take many passes to finish and keep it maintained.

My whole life I have overcooked meat until it is dry more often than not.

God is showing me is a memory of the 8 of us on the run in a house with a cathedral ceiling and an huge open space with a fireplace and a kitchen. We kids sleep upstairs in one room all 6 children on the floor in separate sleeping bags.

Something in that house was not cooked well or maybe it was the eggnog but I remember being very sick from something we ate and being questioned about who made the mess?

I have been set free from this before but it seems to have returned and I have a ham to figure out how to moisten it so we can eat it.

The fear might have returned after reading a book about a missionary who got trichinosis from wild hogs. She almost died but it leg to the natives learning to cook the meat well.

Hopefully, this root is pulled for good and there is nothing to regrow. We will see. Moist meat is more enjoyable to eat.

God Bless us all with The PEACE OF GOD FILLING OUR SOULS DAILY! AMEN!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Improvement!

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Today, I woke knowing the setting sun is happening fast!

Getting dressed for falling temperatures and heading out to run, feeling good. I dressed well but it was getting chilly as the sun set.

My body is getting in better shape! My Runkeeper app clocked me at 14:31 mm at the start.

It is interesting, I’m not ready to run the whole thing without stopping  but I am getting closer. Today I took a different route and wasn’t sure if I would make it all but I did!

Doubling up every row running 4 miles by myself and ending with speed and filling my lungs deep with oxygen to the bottom of my lungs.

As my lungs were being filled deep, my mind went to my back surgery and the full body cast I wore for 9 months. The doctors gave me blow bottles to exercise my lungs.  One bottle is filled with water and the goal is to push about 2 liters of water to the other bottle. My brother and I made a game of it. Who can do it first and the fastest. We had to fill our lungs to push it all in one breath!

Ending my run with the two dogs. They each got 1/2 mile

It is time to dig out my winter items to cover my ears and neck, the temperatures are dropping. My run ended up with 3 of my 5 miles at 16 mm, pretty good.

I will leave you with some pictures I took.

 

 

God Bless each and everyone with heat as the temperatures drop and the desire to get out and move even in colder weather.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Be Strong and Courageous

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God Prepared me for what was about to happen!

The summer of 1983 God kept me reading Joshua 1:6-9 and the music I listened to was Michael W. Smith’s song, “Be Strong and Very Courageous.”

The first chapter of Joshua says, “Be Strong and Courageous” 4 times in verse 6, 7, 9, and 18. There is a 5th time in Deuteronomy 31:23 where Joshua is commissioned.

Our college church group is planning a camping trip into Manitoba, Canada the last weekend of July. The plan is for the men to drive motorcycles and the women pile into automobiles with food and tents.

In a group meeting the week before we leave the youth pastor teaches on not having insurance but trusting God.

But God as Wise as He is sends a friend of mine to me tell me about health insurance he bought for $25 which I am able to afford so I buy it.

The night we arrive is clear and the stars are bright as I’ve ever seen as we star gaze.

The next morning I am walking to my tent and God impresses upon me how powerful and dangerous motorcycles are.

              What arises in me is rebellion!

I go into my tent and tell God I am going to buy a motorcycle and go driving cross country. Showing this to a friend just before the guys suggest we tour the park on the bikes. Each woman jumps on the back of a motorcycle and we take off at a good speed.

The young man driving the bike I am on notices my fear as we take a blind curve, so on the return trip he is going slower for me. But then he is getting behind and tries to catch up just at the blind curve!

He is going to fast to stay in his lane and a station wagon filled with a family is approaching from the opposite direction. My driver wisely puts his bike down. He flies 40 feet and breaks his leg. The bike goes under the station wagon totaling both vehicles.

On the other hand I am sitting straight up on the bike because of the 18 inch Harrington rod holding up my spine, so my body hits the bumper with my left pelvic bone and my left ribs hit the windshield and bounce off.

God was prepared to help even in my rebellion!

There just happened to be an ambulance at the entrance of the park. I have 2 collapsed lungs loosing 32 pints of blood in the first 24 hours and the first hospital rejects me. They don’t believe I will live for the next 7 days as I continue to hemorrhage blood.

Thankfully on the day the pain is so great I am ready to give up Dad challenges me. He suggests I am giving up and I rebel against his statement making me fight to keep living!

Being 21 years old I notice that I didn’t break a fingernail! We all believe I didn’t break any bones and my problem is internal organs. How important can they be?

At the time they agree I am going to live, they take out the respirator. We soon find my jaw is broken because I cannot close my mouth! I wake up from surgery paranoid, so I put myself back to sleep. (They used cocaine  to numb my nose to feed respirator.) I wake up in my own room with my mouth wired shut and a pair of scissors taped to the head of the bed freaking Mom out.

Starting to eat with my mouth wired shut I drink milk and broth. In the beginning, Dad tries to make me drink more milk than my body is able to handle and it comes back up. This would be the point to cut the wires but I pushed the curdled milk out through my teeth and wires and keep the ability to breath. Thank Goodness.

Asking, “Mom, Why did the milk go down liquid and come up in chunks?”

The Canadian night nurses ask me to name the state they cannot remember. I struggle to name them all but cannot come up with it.

The doctors know I have 3 breaks in my left pelvic bone but believe it is healed enough to start walking. Then my brother is given permission to take me in a wheelchair outside. He chooses the broken sidewalk. As I go bumping along my broken pelvic bones move!

The solid bone that supports my pelvis is MOVING! I AM SCARED! I DON’T SAY ANYTHING!

The physical Therapist suggests I am in more pain than expected so they should x-ray my bones and they find they have moved. They need to put me in traction!

My parents make the Very Wise decision to move me to the States where I have friends to visit me for the next month.

First thing arriving in the states they drill into my leg bone and put a pin in it adding a weight and tell me to lift the weight many times a day. I cannot do it once. Then they decide that my jaw isn’t healing straight and they re-break my jaw and add rubber bands so I am able to throw up easily!

Getting out after another month in the hospital I owed $25! God Provided. My friend did say they immediately raised the price but he paid for me to keep me covered.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

HE BUILT ME UP TO BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS FOR THIS MOMENT!   

HE CARRIED ME THROUGH!

The Tongue

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The Word of God is a Healing Balm

When I met Jesus at 19 years old, He filled me with HOLY SPIRIT, LOVE, and JOY. This started my healing process which continues to this day 40+ years later.

A deceitful tongue crushes the spirit, Proverbs 15:4B

The father that raised me the first 8 years of my life looked for excitement daily making me in my mom’s words “daddies little girl!”

The exciting man caught my mom’s attention because she was raised on a farm 10 miles from a small town in Northern Minnesota. This was back in the 40’s and 50’s. I believe she attended a one room school house a few miles from home for the first 8 years before graduating to riding the bus into town for high school.

My mom was special. She was the youngest of 4 children for her first 8 years before her younger sister was born. Mom was the only blonde in any of the family’s history. That was a big enough deal for me to hear about it often during my childhood.

Mom went away to college and found a man who would take her out to pizza and spaghetti and Dad found a beautiful sexy blonde. These are the reasons they married. How could this go wrong?

Dad came from an alcoholic family and did everything the alcoholic did except drink alcohol. We spent many summers living in tents with a river as the fridge and my brother and I wore life jackets to keep us safe. Dad would go into town to make money and have a life leaving us in the tent for the summer.

When we rented houses Mom said, “It seemed every time I made a friend we moved.” The other thing Mom said, “It seemed that facts and truth always change.” does that sound like lies being covered up? Or the need for control?

There was one night Dad didn’t come home and Mom called the police and he was escorted home. He never stayed out late again.

They have both gone to heaven and letters Dad kept his whole life have been sent to our family. Reading the letters and the court document from the divorce and child custody case are starting to make sense. He talked the talk. One couple agreed with his talk so much they gave him money to take us kids and his mistress and her three kids on a trip from hell. All to leave my mom and to keep the kids. Mom had to pack up and move home to her mom and dad.

My dad wrote on the court document that since his parents didn’t agree with his plan he would just lie to them. Those letters have no hint of deceit that I can find. He was a good liar.

There were some consequences of his behavior:

He was kicked out of the teaching department in college so he didn’t finish the degree.

He introduced a sexual predator into his children lives traumatizing us.

In case life wasn’t exciting enough he chooses to offer me to Satan in a worship service ending with sex party. This was so horrendous my mind had to protect it’s self and I returned to a 7 year old in every scary situation or an unfamiliar social gathering.

When I was 14 he sent a letter telling me I was of the age to choose where I wanted to live. Fear filled me and we kids acted so strange Mom told him to stop contacting us.

He couldn’t keep a job or a wife.

He didn’t want to experience the consequences of his actions so he ran until God got a hold of him. God settled him down and he had a good life for the last20-30 years of his life.

The one thing God tried to get from him was a confession of messing up our lives but he couldn’t repent and submit so God did not allow me to visit him in later life. It wasn’t safe.

One last result of his lies, I tell the truth to the extreme. God is teaching me how to soften my truth.

But a healing tongue is a tree of life. Proverbs 15:4

The healing tongue came with my husband who called me lady when we met. My husband has never said a unkind word in my presence or about me. He always lifts me up and put a smile on my face. He has taken care of me and protect me all the years I was afraid of life. Now he is learning how to help me grow.

The other person was Joyce Meyer who taught me how to forgive, to give all my worries to God and leave them there, to change my self talk to I am the righteousness of God in Jesus and I am the beloved, I am redeemed, I am LOVED BY GOD, I am taken up and adopted by God.

God gave me the 27th Psalm which has protection, LOVE AND ADORATION, adoption, lifting me up and giving me knowledge that everything will work out for my good here on this earth.

In 2010 God put us in a church that knows how to care for people and accept us in our mess and help us change and grow into the person God intends for us to be.

In 2012 God set me free from the nightmare that kept me safe as a child. I was 50 years old. I have been spending the last 15 years growing as a person, learning boundaries, becoming an adult who doesn’t shut down when confronted with authority, and many other things such as this blog.

27 Psalm

The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?

When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh, My adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell.

Though a host encamp against me, My heart will not fear; Though war arise against me, In spite of this I shall be confident.

One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD  all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to meditate in His temple.

For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle; In the secret place of His tent He will hide me; He will lift me up on a rock.

And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me; And I will offer in His tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing, yes I will sing praises to the LORD.

Hear, O LORD, WHEN I cry with my voice, And be gracious to me and answer me. When Thou didst say, “Seek My face,” my heart said to Thee, “Thy face, O LORD, I shall seek.”

Do not hide Thy face from me, Do not turn Thy servant away in anger; Thou hast been my help; Do not abandon me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation!

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the LORD  will take me up.

Teach me Thy way, O LORD, And lead me in a level path, Because of my foes.

Do not deliver me over to the desire of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.

I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Happy 70th

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Happy Birthday Mr. Hunk!

You have brought me such Joy in all these years! Do you remember going to Disney Land  and San Diego and the vehicle that kept loosing power steering in the middle of I-5 with 10 lanes of traffic? We had to stop at 3-4 different gas stations, (back when gas stations did engine work) to work on it and the final one in San Diego, the mechanic  thought we were on our honeymoon.

In reality it was a test!

I found I could trust you to keep me safe.

You didn’t loose your cool but did your best to enjoy the difficult situation that kept happening. 

 

Do you remember the young skinny people we were?

The move across the country with a 12 month old daughter?


Our first house we thought we would live in forever?

 

 

 

Our time together as empty nesters!

 

You finally decided to join me in walking 2 miles in all types of weather.

We have walked it the 90 degrees, pouring rain, freezing temps and enjoying the snow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Going to church together!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just having fun! 

God Bless you for another 30-40 years! Amen.

Love you forever and ever!

I First Recognize God’s Voice

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Driving down Hodges Blvd there are two street lights less than a 1/2 block apart and every time they change, they change together.

This is a road I drive almost every day of our 5 years living here. One day I have a thougth as I am going through the first light.

I hear, “Red light!”

I think, “There is no way it will turn!”

“How did it turn?”

“How did I know it would turn before it turned?”

I do ponder this for weeks before the revelation comes! God Spoke to me as I was driving. I heard God Words in my mind. This is my introduction to knowing God talks to me!

For the longest time I understand it is a God thought because I argue with the thought.

Today, I actively practice Listening for God’s Words!

Sometimes it is an action of crucifying my desire to of what I am doing to obey, for example submit and go prostrate on the floor because I forgot. It is not always a WORD OF GOD but a communication He knows I Understand. God has gotten me out of bed for Prayers and Praise and Submitting.

Often He is answering a question I have asked.

One question was answered 40 years after I asked with a simple,

“YES!”

Many times He has given me UNDERSTANDING  in a WORD packed with information to keep me out of trouble. Other times the WORD was a picture like when I asked God if my daughter was lying to my face. He shows me the lying face of my daughter and she was lying to my face.

I am learning it is better to obey quickly.

Praying daily  “GOD, FILL ME AND MAKE ME WHO YOU NEED ME TO BE!”

“PUT YOUR WORDS IN MY MOUTH AND MEDITATIONS  IN MY HEART, AMEN!”

Ask The God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob to teach you how to hear and obey.

Ask Jesus the Son of God to Fill you with Holy Spirit and The LOVE  that will transform your life forever! Amen.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!