Be Strong and Courageous

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God Prepared me for what was about to happen!

The summer of 1983 God kept me reading Joshua 1:6-9 and the music I listened to was Michael W. Smith’s song, “Be Strong and Very Courageous.”

The first chapter of Joshua says, “Be Strong and Courageous” 4 times in verse 6, 7, 9, and 18. There is a 5th time in Deuteronomy 31:23 where Joshua is commissioned.

Our college church group is planning a camping trip into Manitoba, Canada the last weekend of July. The plan is for the men to drive motorcycles and the women pile into automobiles with food and tents.

In a group meeting the week before we leave the youth pastor teaches on not having insurance but trusting God.

But God as Wise as He is sends a friend of mine to me tell me about health insurance he bought for $25 which I am able to afford so I buy it.

The night we arrive is clear and the stars are bright as I’ve ever seen as we star gaze.

The next morning I am walking to my tent and God impresses upon me how powerful and dangerous motorcycles are.

              What arises in me is rebellion!

I go into my tent and tell God I am going to buy a motorcycle and go driving cross country. Showing this to a friend just before the guys suggest we tour the park on the bikes. Each woman jumps on the back of a motorcycle and we take off at a good speed.

The young man driving the bike I am on notices my fear as we take a blind curve, so on the return trip he is going slower for me. But then he is getting behind and tries to catch up just at the blind curve!

He is going to fast to stay in his lane and a station wagon filled with a family is approaching from the opposite direction. My driver wisely puts his bike down. He flies 40 feet and breaks his leg. The bike goes under the station wagon totaling both vehicles.

On the other hand I am sitting straight up on the bike because of the 18 inch Harrington rod holding up my spine, so my body hits the bumper with my left pelvic bone and my left ribs hit the windshield and bounce off.

God was prepared to help even in my rebellion!

There just happened to be an ambulance at the entrance of the park. I have 2 collapsed lungs loosing 32 pints of blood in the first 24 hours and the first hospital rejects me. They don’t believe I will live for the next 7 days as I continue to hemorrhage blood.

Thankfully on the day the pain is so great I am ready to give up Dad challenges me. He suggests I am giving up and I rebel against his statement making me fight to keep living!

Being 21 years old I notice that I didn’t break a fingernail! We all believe I didn’t break any bones and my problem is internal organs. How important can they be?

At the time they agree I am going to live, they take out the respirator. We soon find my jaw is broken because I cannot close my mouth! I wake up from surgery paranoid, so I put myself back to sleep. (They used cocaine  to numb my nose to feed respirator.) I wake up in my own room with my mouth wired shut and a pair of scissors taped to the head of the bed freaking Mom out.

Starting to eat with my mouth wired shut I drink milk and broth. In the beginning, Dad tries to make me drink more milk than my body is able to handle and it comes back up. This would be the point to cut the wires but I pushed the curdled milk out through my teeth and wires and keep the ability to breath. Thank Goodness.

Asking, “Mom, Why did the milk go down liquid and come up in chunks?”

The Canadian night nurses ask me to name the state they cannot remember. I struggle to name them all but cannot come up with it.

The doctors know I have 3 breaks in my left pelvic bone but believe it is healed enough to start walking. Then my brother is given permission to take me in a wheelchair outside. He chooses the broken sidewalk. As I go bumping along my broken pelvic bones move!

The solid bone that supports my pelvis is MOVING! I AM SCARED! I DON’T SAY ANYTHING!

The physical Therapist suggests I am in more pain than expected so they should x-ray my bones and they find they have moved. They need to put me in traction!

My parents make the Very Wise decision to move me to the States where I have friends to visit me for the next month.

First thing arriving in the states they drill into my leg bone and put a pin in it adding a weight and tell me to lift the weight many times a day. I cannot do it once. Then they decide that my jaw isn’t healing straight and they re-break my jaw and add rubber bands so I am able to throw up easily!

Getting out after another month in the hospital I owed $25! God Provided. My friend did say they immediately raised the price but he paid for me to keep me covered.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

HE BUILT ME UP TO BE STRONG AND COURAGEOUS FOR THIS MOMENT!   

HE CARRIED ME THROUGH!

The Tongue

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The Word of God is a Healing Balm

When I met Jesus at 19 years old, He filled me with HOLY SPIRIT, LOVE, and JOY. This started my healing process which continues to this day 40+ years later.

A deceitful tongue crushes the spirit, Proverbs 15:4B

The father that raised me the first 8 years of my life looked for excitement daily making me in my mom’s words “daddies little girl!”

The exciting man caught my mom’s attention because she was raised on a farm 10 miles from a small town in Northern Minnesota. This was back in the 40’s and 50’s. I believe she attended a one room school house a few miles from home for the first 8 years before graduating to riding the bus into town for high school.

My mom was special. She was the youngest of 4 children for her first 8 years before her younger sister was born. Mom was the only blonde in any of the family’s history. That was a big enough deal for me to hear about it often during my childhood.

Mom went away to college and found a man who would take her out to pizza and spaghetti and Dad found a beautiful sexy blonde. These are the reasons they married. How could this go wrong?

Dad came from an alcoholic family and did everything the alcoholic did except drink alcohol. We spent many summers living in tents with a river as the fridge and my brother and I wore life jackets to keep us safe. Dad would go into town to make money and have a life leaving us in the tent for the summer.

When we rented houses Mom said, “It seemed every time I made a friend we moved.” The other thing Mom said, “It seemed that facts and truth always change.” does that sound like lies being covered up? Or the need for control?

There was one night Dad didn’t come home and Mom called the police and he was escorted home. He never stayed out late again.

They have both gone to heaven and letters Dad kept his whole life have been sent to our family. Reading the letters and the court document from the divorce and child custody case are starting to make sense. He talked the talk. One couple agreed with his talk so much they gave him money to take us kids and his mistress and her three kids on a trip from hell. All to leave my mom and to keep the kids. Mom had to pack up and move home to her mom and dad.

My dad wrote on the court document that since his parents didn’t agree with his plan he would just lie to them. Those letters have no hint of deceit that I can find. He was a good liar.

There were some consequences of his behavior:

He was kicked out of the teaching department in college so he didn’t finish the degree.

He introduced a sexual predator into his children lives traumatizing us.

In case life wasn’t exciting enough he chooses to offer me to Satan in a worship service ending with sex party. This was so horrendous my mind had to protect it’s self and I returned to a 7 year old in every scary situation or an unfamiliar social gathering.

When I was 14 he sent a letter telling me I was of the age to choose where I wanted to live. Fear filled me and we kids acted so strange Mom told him to stop contacting us.

He couldn’t keep a job or a wife.

He didn’t want to experience the consequences of his actions so he ran until God got a hold of him. God settled him down and he had a good life for the last20-30 years of his life.

The one thing God tried to get from him was a confession of messing up our lives but he couldn’t repent and submit so God did not allow me to visit him in later life. It wasn’t safe.

One last result of his lies, I tell the truth to the extreme. God is teaching me how to soften my truth.

But a healing tongue is a tree of life. Proverbs 15:4

The healing tongue came with my husband who called me lady when we met. My husband has never said a unkind word in my presence or about me. He always lifts me up and put a smile on my face. He has taken care of me and protect me all the years I was afraid of life. Now he is learning how to help me grow.

The other person was Joyce Meyer who taught me how to forgive, to give all my worries to God and leave them there, to change my self talk to I am the righteousness of God in Jesus and I am the beloved, I am redeemed, I am LOVED BY GOD, I am taken up and adopted by God.

God gave me the 27th Psalm which has protection, LOVE AND ADORATION, adoption, lifting me up and giving me knowledge that everything will work out for my good here on this earth.

In 2010 God put us in a church that knows how to care for people and accept us in our mess and help us change and grow into the person God intends for us to be.

In 2012 God set me free from the nightmare that kept me safe as a child. I was 50 years old. I have been spending the last 15 years growing as a person, learning boundaries, becoming an adult who doesn’t shut down when confronted with authority, and many other things such as this blog.

27 Psalm

The LORD is my light and my salvation; Whom shall I fear? The LORD is the defense of my life; Whom shall I dread?

When evildoers came upon me to devour my flesh, My adversaries and my enemies, they stumbled and fell.

Though a host encamp against me, My heart will not fear; Though war arise against me, In spite of this I shall be confident.

One thing I have asked from the LORD, that I shall seek: That I may dwell in the house of the LORD  all the days of my life, To behold the beauty of the LORD, And to meditate in His temple.

For in the day of trouble He will conceal me in His tabernacle; In the secret place of His tent He will hide me; He will lift me up on a rock.

And now my head will be lifted up above my enemies around me; And I will offer in His tent sacrifices with shouts of joy; I will sing, yes I will sing praises to the LORD.

Hear, O LORD, WHEN I cry with my voice, And be gracious to me and answer me. When Thou didst say, “Seek My face,” my heart said to Thee, “Thy face, O LORD, I shall seek.”

Do not hide Thy face from me, Do not turn Thy servant away in anger; Thou hast been my help; Do not abandon me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation!

For my father and my mother have forsaken me, But the LORD  will take me up.

Teach me Thy way, O LORD, And lead me in a level path, Because of my foes.

Do not deliver me over to the desire of my adversaries; For false witnesses have risen against me, And such as breathe out violence.

I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD In the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD; Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Happy 70th

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Happy Birthday Mr. Hunk!

You have brought me such Joy in all these years! Do you remember going to Disney Land  and San Diego and the vehicle that kept loosing power steering in the middle of I-5 with 10 lanes of traffic? We had to stop at 3-4 different gas stations, (back when gas stations did engine work) to work on it and the final one in San Diego, the mechanic  thought we were on our honeymoon.

In reality it was a test!

I found I could trust you to keep me safe.

You didn’t loose your cool but did your best to enjoy the difficult situation that kept happening. 

 

Do you remember the young skinny people we were?

The move across the country with a 12 month old daughter?


Our first house we thought we would live in forever?

 

 

 

Our time together as empty nesters!

 

You finally decided to join me in walking 2 miles in all types of weather.

We have walked it the 90 degrees, pouring rain, freezing temps and enjoying the snow.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Going to church together!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Just having fun! 

God Bless you for another 30-40 years! Amen.

Love you forever and ever!

I First Recognize God’s Voice

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Driving down Hodges Blvd there are two street lights less than a 1/2 block apart and every time they change, they change together.

This is a road I drive almost every day of our 5 years living here. One day I have a thougth as I am going through the first light.

I hear, “Red light!”

I think, “There is no way it will turn!”

“How did it turn?”

“How did I know it would turn before it turned?”

I do ponder this for weeks before the revelation comes! God Spoke to me as I was driving. I heard God Words in my mind. This is my introduction to knowing God talks to me!

For the longest time I understand it is a God thought because I argue with the thought.

Today, I actively practice Listening for God’s Words!

Sometimes it is an action of crucifying my desire to of what I am doing to obey, for example submit and go prostrate on the floor because I forgot. It is not always a WORD OF GOD but a communication He knows I Understand. God has gotten me out of bed for Prayers and Praise and Submitting.

Often He is answering a question I have asked.

One question was answered 40 years after I asked with a simple,

“YES!”

Many times He has given me UNDERSTANDING  in a WORD packed with information to keep me out of trouble. Other times the WORD was a picture like when I asked God if my daughter was lying to my face. He shows me the lying face of my daughter and she was lying to my face.

I am learning it is better to obey quickly.

Praying daily  “GOD, FILL ME AND MAKE ME WHO YOU NEED ME TO BE!”

“PUT YOUR WORDS IN MY MOUTH AND MEDITATIONS  IN MY HEART, AMEN!”

Ask The God of Abraham, Issac, and Jacob to teach you how to hear and obey.

Ask Jesus the Son of God to Fill you with Holy Spirit and The LOVE  that will transform your life forever! Amen.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Hello

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Today, Saturday, October 25, 2025 became a true day of rest. 

It is a day of laying on the couch, watching TV, and falling asleep a few times.

Today, messing up, I did one thing  that was not following God.

Daily I ask God to guide me as I get my vitamins, but today I decided I wanted 2 pills of this ALA stuff that is suppose to help with nerve pain. God gave me one pill and I had to work to get the second pill out. Two pills is a dose but God was saying one.

It stuck in my throat for a while but finally cleared. Waking up from a nap God pointed out that I was not submitting my flesh!

Matthew 16:24 ESV Jesus told his disciples, if any one would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow me.

I am learning to follow more quickly. Every morning and evening since 2019 God has given me the ability to lay prostrate on the ground. It was a miracle at that moment after spending 40 years bent forward with the rod in my spine, anytime I needed to lay on my abdomen a pillow or two was needed to let my legs hang down and keep that leaning forward form.

The fact that I am able to lay prostrate on the ground flat is a miracle and since then I have submitted every morning and evening saying,

“God fill me and make me who You need me to be!” 

Every once and a while I forget and God reminds me. I have gotten down in the grass outside of a doctor’s office or the church library, to obey.

Working to act more quickly instead of putting it off for a moment until I am ready takes submitting and giving up my will. It becomes easier the more I fall in LOVE with Jesus! Join me in falling in Love with Jesus!

Maybe tomorrow I will talk about the first time I knew it was God and not me in my head. Love You All! God Bless!

God Bless each one of you with The Joy of the LORD Bringing healing to every cell in your body! Amen.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD

Day of Rest?

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Sitting +computer = screaming back muscles!

Yesterday I woke and was at a counseling appointment within an hour. After my appointment, off to the grocery store spending 2 hours trying to buy needs and not spend more than I have. The thought of scanning while I go sounds good today, but I don’t know how.

God prompts me to go to the vitamin isle for cranberry pills.

“Why Do You want me to go check out the vitamins?”

It doesn’t take too long before I start to realize I haven’t drunk enough water today or yesterday and a UTI is setting up. By the time shopping is done I KNOW I NEED cranberry pills. Reaching the vehicle I rip open the package and down the water in my glass as fast as possible.

At home I fill my glass a few times while getting ready to run. Looking out the window while drinking water I see sun shining on the trees across the street and the dark rain clouds behind them.

Rising to take a picture or two I head outside and find the most beautiful rainbow so bright  turning into a double rain bow, almost making a big fat rainbow as they kinda connect.

They fade and then another one shows up!

 

 

 

 

 

Feeling Blessed I head out to run driving the vehicle in case of rain.

 

I also need to head back to the store to get money I missed.

 

 

 

 

Guess what I find while running? 

 

More beautiful sunset pictures!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Finally, 8:00 P.M. I am home and make myself breakfast and after that make my husband dinner. Feeling accomplished the couch and an interesting movie sound good to rest my back.

I am too exhausted to type about the day!

What  happens? My body feels everything  the next day.

 

Today, Friday my body starts screaming and waking me up!

It isn’t too surprising that I fall back asleep for a few hours after the pain leaves.

 

Obviously, tonight Friday night or Saturday morning God has taken enough pain giving me the ability to write this. I will probably post it and check it when I wake Saturday afternoon.

If you haven’t figured out I enjoy taking pictures of nature and sharing them. They are on my iPhone with no filters. It is just the ability to zoom in and take lots of pictures to get the good ones or the ones I really enjoy. Someday I need to sit down and delete the ones not so good.

Does anyone else enjoy the pictures?

 

 

 

 

 

The other thing that happened at the store was a God encounter and a young 20’s woman selling prizes.

I said, “No.” and walked off 

Something, (God) made me turn around and fill out the entry slip and start up a conversation with her. She is a new Christian and wanted everything I could tell her in this short time.

I need to find a way to make videos. I have been told by two different people I need to do this and it is probably time. People respond better to my speaking and I’m more encouraging than when I type.  Anyone know someone who would like to help me?

The knowledge gained being set free from the garbage I grew up with will help so many other people be set free!

God Bless each person reading this with THE LOVE OF GOD FILLING EVERY CELL IN YOUR BODY! Amen. 

GOD IS GOOD!

Even If

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Today I wake with the desire to run!

The sun is shining and everything is peaceful for a moment.

Soon the wind picks up and the rain pelts us with hail!

 

 

Does anyone appreciate my lemon tree? It is soon time to bring it in the house, we did cover it once this Autumn along with a few other plants. Thankfully we have not had a need to turn the heat on yet.

I start looking at the Weather App for a good time to run, there might be a break in the rain  and thunderstorms around 5-7 P.M.

It is one of those days it would feel good to sit under a blanket and watch TV. Looking out the window I see the mail-lady and decide to go check out the flowers. This is the beautiful sunshine as I walk to the mailbox in my slippers. My slippers get wet!

Deciding to fight the desire to stay under the covers I choose to walk the dogs. The sun is shining, perfect timing. Hoping Sam will run, I put on my old running shoes. It might be the only run I get. I don’t want to get my good running shoes wet.

We run the half mile around the block. Sam is done so I pick up Charlie. It starts to rain before I step outside again, so I grab my umbrella.

We walk at good pace for our elder dog Charlie and I am staying dry until…!

About 3/4 around the block the storm picks up! I hold my umbrella with both hands to keep it from being ripped apart! The rain is pelting us and there might be ice in the mix!

The wind picks up and almost blows me over!

I am trying to hurry home when I have a thought, “take vehicle!”

The thought drops into my mind to drive to the cemetery, giving me a safe place if it storms again.

I end up running for 2 miles and never getting rained on, but when I arrive home and enter the house the rain begins again!

 

The thought that drops into my mind is from God.

I have had enough experiences to recognize a God thought to differentiate it from my thoughts or evil thoughts. God Thoughts are meant to be obeyed for my best life.

The clouds are fascinating as they go from stormy to sunny and back again.

God Bless each of you with safety in your day! Amen!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

The Importance of a Step

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Sunshine is a good motivator!

But last week there was a day God was drawing me outside to the warmth of the sun, but I stayed inside with my pain. It would have changed that day and the ones that followed.

Today, only takes an hour for the shining sun to draw me outside.

Walking around the flowerbed I chose a spot to pull grass in the sun.

The temperatures are dropping into more normal range of the 60’s. I choose to be brave and try my jeans from last year! Thankfully they fit comfortable enough to work in. The temperature is just too cool for shorts.

Do you think I have work? There is a hosta in the middle of the grass which I dig up and attempt to get all the grass roots separated from the hosta roots. I am not sure how well I did so we will see what happens when Spring arrives.

 

 

 

After working on the hosta, I see grass starting to grow from roots left in the dirt and dig to pull each root, then I continue to the grass behind the flowers.

Back in this area the dirt is holding the moisture from the last 2 days of rain making it more difficult, but I keep working.

 

 

Continuing to dig until the sun sets I do make an impact. Remembering years past this area used to be filled with hosta plants. Some of them probably left because of the change from shade to sunlight but mostly they were just crowed out by the grass that overtook everything.

Walking outside for sunshine transforms my day.

It helps me walks the dogs and puts a smile on my face. The better attitude helps me not get frustrated with the TV not connecting to WiFi.

Start each day, choose to move, one step at a time and shine.

God Bless Each of you with The Joy of The LORD Filling you daily! Amen.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.

Energy from God

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Unusual hours!

Bed at 4:53 A.M.

Awake at 8:13 A.M.

Church at 9:15 for choir practice.

Church service 10:00 A.M.

This October we are showing episodes of The Chosen season 5 after church with discussion time and a meal afterwards, to discuss what we watched. I really enjoy watching and talking about The Chosen, it has changed my life for the better.

Home 2:00 P.M. and to bed. Yeah, I get 4 more hours of sleep!

Waking up at 6:45 P.M. It takes a bit for my body to switch from laying down to sitting up with scoliosis, especially after sitting at church for 4 hours.

At 9:00 P.M. I am deciding it would be good to make a salad with boiled eggs. It takes me an hour to make my salad most days and up to, two hours to eat it.

Do you appreciate one size over the other of the picture?

This one is medium and the other is large at the bottom of the page. It is a big difference to me. I wonder what small is?

The other question: Do you like my salad?

At 10:00 P.M. I started to eat this salad and needed to lay down so the salad went on hold.

Laying down 10:35 and waking up at midnight. Fitbit gave me another hour sleep, up to 8 total.

I finish eating the salad at 2 A.M. and feel exhausted. The need to lay down returns but this time I am asking God.

God, “I don’t know how I am going to write a story or do anything to get myself to bed.” 

Usually the salad wakes gives me energy but not tonight, I lay down to rest.

Suddenly I feel hungry

Realizing the hunger is for milk and a granola bar and nuts I get up and make my snack. What happens next is amazing!

Strength and energy are rising up in me!

I don’t understand it but often when God suggests something it doesn’t seem normal.

Here I am finishing this story at 5:30 A.M. and getting ready to go to bed.

Prayer meeting is at 10:00 A.M. Today I believe I will ask God to wake me if He wants me to go.

I believe God wants me to write daily because it is how I live my life talking to God all the way through it. Sometimes He gives me hunger for something like today or pictures in my mind as I ran yesterday.

It is a learning process to find how God will relate to us. He knows we all function uniquely.

It is a wonderful relationship when we take time and invest in it.  

God Bless You with The Peace of God in Jesus, Amen.

A Space in Time

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This morning/afternoon I woke thinking run.

My husband suggested it is suppose to rain all day.

God will provide the way if it is His idea.

After an hour of waking up I start to get dressed to run and head out doing my best to miss the puddles of water everywhere.

Every once and a while I see the sun trying to peak through to give me encouragement! It reminds me of walking in the dark cloudy nights and having the clouds parting to show me the Big Dipper. It always makes me feel like God is watching out for me to keep me safe.

I suppose this day with the sun peaking out God is telling me He is keeping me dry and giving me what I need to run safely.Today the first look of Autumn surprises me! 

When I am not at my strongest my eyes look down so I see the patch of leaves on the ground long before I see the tree they fell from.

This color of leaves gives me great JOY! I think of it as Beautiful! Do any of you enjoy the beauty of leaves on the ground? Or do you prefer them in the trees?

God gave me a whole hour to run 3 miles, DRY!

I am Thankful!

My run has moved from 20mm to 17mm. Most people will think it is slower than they walk and that is probably is true but I can only do what I can do.

I didn’t experience any rain falling the whole time I ran. It started up a few minutes after getting home. It was probably the only dry moment of the day! God is Good!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD.  

God is telling me to start typing every day so we will see what happens. I am noticing things to experiment with so we will see what I try and what works out.

So you like the pictures this big? Or do you want them smaller?

God Bless each and everyone with The Joy of the LORD FILLING your soul daily! Amen.