During a walk with my husband, I stop to talk with a women walking alone.

In the past, Sam would bark making talk difficult. This day Sam stays quiet so I know it is a God moment.

In the conversation I mention, “God healing nerves and bone but leaving scoliosis.”

She asked, “Can you lift your hands? Wash your face? Brush your hair?”

I lifted my one free hand above my hand as I do when I Praise God!

She felt inspired by the smile and the Joy that emanating from me.

Pondering her words, I remember in my 40’s experiencing some difficulty lifting my hands and extending them out.

God has given me nerves and the ability to grow muscle in my 50’s to be able to lift my hands high!

This gives me desire to Praise God all the more!

 

A neighbor’s friends comes over to tell me, “She doesn’t feel comfortable with…”

My emotions flip into a tailspin. Writhing in pain from the thoughts attacking my mind,    “I’m going to loose all my neighborhood friends!”

My reaction is way out of proportion to the situation!

 “God, show me where this is coming from!”

HE pulls up this memory.

The summer of 1983, I find friends in a college group of the church I attend.  One weekend, the college group drives to Canada for a camping trip: the women drive automobiles, the men are on motorcycles.

During this trip I am included and accepted. The trip is full of fun and joy! We decide to tour the park on bikes.

CRASH!

The motorcycle slides under a station wagon. A body collides with the front end before landing in the field.

The accident itself is not the cause of the trouble.

The fact my father hires a lawyer to sue for the insurance money is.

The youth pastor teaches, “We don’t believe in insurance.“

I am called into his office. Paralyzed with fear, I listen and leave.

My friends stay away like I am poisonous fruit.

The Head Pastor asks an inappropriate question in the middle of a crowd, and promptly tells me, “I am not able to marry you.”

I ride my bicycle back to the dorm in tears, alone!

I push forward focusing on my senior classes, the wedding, and the surgery to return my insides to their proper place.

Not dealing with the pain, leaves an open wound waiting to to bleed over anyone around.

I have not had many friends anytime in my life.

But God is changing things, I am building friendships!

I realize now, the fear of possibly loosing my new friends has kept me bound, not able to do my normal joyful tasks.

God knew it is time to heal the the open wound. He allowed me to feel the pain as he ripped off the bandage filled with lies, allowing the wound to heal.

This plant started itself and continued growing all summer. I watched as it covered the sidewalk, and I felt helpless to change it.

 Today, I notice a FREEDOM in my soul!

I dispose of the plant blocking entrance to my home.

GOD IS GOOD!

This day is wonderful and grows in well-being as I watch myself do the thing I couldn’t do the day before, until…

It all comes crashing down and I imagine the whole neighborhood hating me.

This well worn path in my brain, “I am starting to be accepted and I messed it up again!”

I try weeding my garden, walking with my husband, but this horrible thought of “I always mess it up!” continues in my brain!

BUT GOD!

I get out journal tell God all my fears and frustrations then turn on a Bethel Worship Service!

After two hours of praise and worship of Jesus, my shame and self defeating thoughts fall to the wayside.

Later I receive a text thanking me for the thing I thought was in trouble for!

Someday that well worn path will be overgrown and it will be hard to find instead of the first place to go to!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

One of my recent posts was about watching God provide money and guide my steps to buy everything I would need for the next few weeks.

Today Bart went shopping and had a similar experience with God providing, unexpectedly.

We are trying to cut our bills and get everything in line but little things like this blog come with bills and this one is due in a week. I don’t know where the money is will come from. I did send in a story to a magazine in hopes of getting published.

If anyone has a desire to help me keep this blog going there is a donate button connecting to PayPal above and below the archives.

God Bless you all!

God Is Still Very Good.

Tuesday, I decide to run to the local store for chips. Checking to see if I have enough to pick up bananas and what I see shocks me!

Three $20’s folded nicely in my wallet.

My first thought, “God put money in my wallet, it is too neat to be anything I did.”

At home I ask, “Bart did you give me money with out telling me?”

“No. Who is giving you money?”

“I Believe God put $60 in my wallet!”

After church, I stop at Aldi grocery and think, “I have the $60, I can buy a bit freely.”

Choosing the bigger chicken and potatoes to go with the chicken, enough eggs for a few weeks and cranberry juice. On the way to check out I pass frozen Salmon. It is wild caught!  I pick it up! Feeling Blessed.

I say this because my bill came to exactly $59.03! How exact is God to provide exactly what is needed and add a little Grace.

Holy Spirit is teaching me to Follow step by step and To Believe for ALL our needs.

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

After Copying all my blog posts and drafts I felt God suggesting I send in an old story to Guideposts.

My desire to clean it up was rebuked by God! He made it known He wanted me to send the story in now not in a week after working on it.

It took a bit for me to find how and where to send in a story not read one.

The directions were so very easy so I sent my story in and was filled with Joy when they sent a reply saying they received my story.  They also said if I don’t hear from them in 2 months I am free to send my story elsewhere.

Earlier, I looked at sending a different story to Readers Digest and they said, “What you send in to us is our property and we have the right to use it at any time.” It scared me.

Looking at all my posts from 2015 to today I noticed many changes. Much of it because of growth. Color was added after I was brave enough to click on buttons and explore a bit.

The journey continues and I still have much to learn, but hopefully some of my stories are helping people connect with God and find healing in His Love! God is Very Good!

Over half way through copying my blog posts, I am finding drafts that look like stories and just didn’t get posted. The good news is I have many stories to post with most of the work already done.

It is interesting to see how often I wrote and how big the spaces are, 2020 had big spaces of time without typing.

Bart and I were trying to find a way to fix some of my computer problems and what I really found is I need more knowledge to know what questions to ask to get my desired results.

God Bless All of You who are enjoying and learning from my stories.

In Christ Jesus Name I Pray! Amen.

What is it about my body that it kicks into moving at 8 P.M.?

Is this a God Thing?

With the sun setting earlier I only have 90 minutes to work in my flower garden.

Working in my garden into the darkness starts my walk when it is too dark to see. Gathering the dogs I head out to get a mile walk for 10,000 steps.

Rounding the first block I see a man in the shadows walking out to check his mail. I hear something and think he might be saying, “Hi! or Hello!”

Walking up to see him in the street light I realize he is getting bags out of his vehicle. He said,”I’m just getting home from work.”

We have polite conversation about where he works.  I mention how God gave me new vertebra and nerves so I am able to run. He says, “I fell off a ladder a few years ago and ended up with compressed vertebra.”

Offering to pray, I ask his name and put it in my phone saying, “I can’t come close to pray because of the dogs.”

He makes a noise to call the dogs and Sam has a soft growl in response.

I Pray, “God to Heal your spine and the stuff in in the middle. MAY THE LOVE OF GOD AND HIS JOY FILL YOUR SOUL!”

As we start walking I realize how perfectly the dogs behaved. They have never be so well behaved especially when talking with someone.

There are times that God sets up a meeting and keeps all the world calm to Do His Work.

I Believe he will wake up in the morning pain free; filled with a Love and Joy he has never known. Amen.

God Is Good Always!

I might be taking a few days off to copy all my stories onto my computer. I was notified that they are switching companies so my 437 stories need to be put somewhere to be kept safely.

Maybe I will change up my blog at the same time.

God Bless you all!