After Copying all my blog posts and drafts I felt God suggesting I send in an old story to Guideposts.

My desire to clean it up was rebuked by God! He made it known He wanted me to send the story in now not in a week after working on it.

It took a bit for me to find how and where to send in a story not read one.

The directions were so very easy so I sent my story in and was filled with Joy when they sent a reply saying they received my story.  They also said if I don’t hear from them in 2 months I am free to send my story elsewhere.

Earlier, I looked at sending a different story to Readers Digest and they said, “What you send in to us is our property and we have the right to use it at any time.” It scared me.

Looking at all my posts from 2015 to today I noticed many changes. Much of it because of growth. Color was added after I was brave enough to click on buttons and explore a bit.

The journey continues and I still have much to learn, but hopefully some of my stories are helping people connect with God and find healing in His Love! God is Very Good!

Over half way through copying my blog posts, I am finding drafts that look like stories and just didn’t get posted. The good news is I have many stories to post with most of the work already done.

It is interesting to see how often I wrote and how big the spaces are, 2020 had big spaces of time without typing.

Bart and I were trying to find a way to fix some of my computer problems and what I really found is I need more knowledge to know what questions to ask to get my desired results.

God Bless All of You who are enjoying and learning from my stories.

In Christ Jesus Name I Pray! Amen.

What is it about my body that it kicks into moving at 8 P.M.?

Is this a God Thing?

With the sun setting earlier I only have 90 minutes to work in my flower garden.

Working in my garden into the darkness starts my walk when it is too dark to see. Gathering the dogs I head out to get a mile walk for 10,000 steps.

Rounding the first block I see a man in the shadows walking out to check his mail. I hear something and think he might be saying, “Hi! or Hello!”

Walking up to see him in the street light I realize he is getting bags out of his vehicle. He said,”I’m just getting home from work.”

We have polite conversation about where he works.  I mention how God gave me new vertebra and nerves so I am able to run. He says, “I fell off a ladder a few years ago and ended up with compressed vertebra.”

Offering to pray, I ask his name and put it in my phone saying, “I can’t come close to pray because of the dogs.”

He makes a noise to call the dogs and Sam has a soft growl in response.

I Pray, “God to Heal your spine and the stuff in in the middle. MAY THE LOVE OF GOD AND HIS JOY FILL YOUR SOUL!”

As we start walking I realize how perfectly the dogs behaved. They have never be so well behaved especially when talking with someone.

There are times that God sets up a meeting and keeps all the world calm to Do His Work.

I Believe he will wake up in the morning pain free; filled with a Love and Joy he has never known. Amen.

God Is Good Always!

I might be taking a few days off to copy all my stories onto my computer. I was notified that they are switching companies so my 437 stories need to be put somewhere to be kept safely.

Maybe I will change up my blog at the same time.

God Bless you all!

I made 48 days of  10,000 step!

Today my body held me captive!

A day of rest is required.

Today, my body acts like someone tied my knees together when I try to walk.

Yesterday, my body was constricted as if I wore brace from 7th grade. Leaning forward was prohibited, but walking was possible, but not today!

Thankfully it doesn’t hurt, it mostly needs rest.

The day started with a women arriving today to sign papers. I told her about healing and speaking life out loud! Giving her the scripture from  1 Peter 2:24 but I said, 2:28 which there is no 28th verse.

Someday I will find a way to have the correct number. In case you want to know why I give it out.

1 Peter 2:24 He himself bore our sins in His body on the tree, so that we might live for righteousness.

“By His wounds you were healed.” TLV

God Is Good!

God has been teaching me say the facts, mam.

No explanation needed.

Emotional healing from God shows me, we who are broken explain. In the depth of brokenness I have no concept, but with healing I hear and understand.

Only in Jesus will I be able to change.

The need to be KNOWN is universal.

In a story about a women who crossed snowy mountains to freedom, I heard her fear of dying alone without being known.

I remember wondering, “If I am hit walking home, will anyone care?”

It is a lie from the depths of hell. My mom fought to find us with everything she had.

The more I receive the LOVE of God, I am KNOWN!

I change by filling my mouth with Truth of Scripture especially the Truth of who I am in Jesus.

THE BIBLE IS TRUE!

GOD IS GOOD!

I AM LOVED BY GOD!

 

When Mom rescues us, she has no idea what  happened the year we were on the run.

Bringing us to the farm she grew up on, Mom gives my grandparents charge as she finds a job. They are at a loss how to care for us. We laugh while being spanked and cry hysterically when bumping against something. Soon they decide boundaries are necessary.

In school a cute boy teases me pretending to kiss me. I scratch him.  Mom finds out and says, “I will cut your nails if you don’t stop.”

We leave the safe place the beginning of 4th grade and move to a basement apartment in town. This gives us access to children to play with and not much supervision. I find a boy to invite into the storage closet and teach him how to kiss. I am nine years old doing what I was taught.

Mom marries my second dad at the end of that year and all my teaching boys how to kiss ends.

My new father has different standards. He wears clothes and doesn’t walk around naked like my first dad. We all have our own bed and plenty to eat.

I keep my distance from boys until high school when one of my brothers friends takes me out.

He puts his hands where he wants and then talks about me, “She is easy!”

I don’t know I have the option to say, “NO!”

Once time I play strip poker. It ends up in sexual foreplay.

This is my first,”No.”

I get hired to work at Hardee’s for the opening in our town.

There just happened to be one of those boys that asks, “Are you a virgin?”

“I don’t know.”

“I can check and tell you!”

I keep away from him.

My senior year I have a boyfriend a few years older. I trust him.

He asks, “Will you allow me to kiss you?”

I don’t know how to have a boyfriend.

Mom writes me a letter, “I expect you to bring him by the family. Hiding means sex.”

I did start bringing him home.  He even came to Sunday dinner with my grandparents.

My first dad brought the people into my life that taught me how to please a man when I am seven years old. He also takes me out of the stable family life I know and thrive in. He turns my life into the things made from nightmares.

My second dad keeps me safe! I don’t end up on the street! 

I DO get a college degree!

This morning, God let me know HE IS THE GOOD, GOOD FATHER!

God let me know He is with me in the dark days, bringing light to the darkness always. He has given me strength to go through! Now He is giving me the ability to enjoy life, not just survive! He is my Abba Daddy!

GOD IS SO VERY GOOD!

Am I the only one who puts

good and bad

labels on people?

My first dad’s mistakes cause pain leading to trauma. His bad label holds no good.  My second dad rescues my mom and brings order. His good label contains no bad.

Some actions of my second dad are not so good and my conscience can’t accept this.  My dreams try to work on this and reoccur every visit.

I attribute all bad dreams to my first dad, but God sets me straight. The first dream I am seven, hiding to protect myself.  My brave 19 year old self works in the second dream to protect my family.

My mom tells me every visit, “You were always Daddy’s little girl.”

God uses the dreams and my mom’s words to help me understand.

My first dad is fun and joyful until lies catch up to him. He chooses to follow the lies instead of The Grace and Truth of Jesus, leading to my pain.

My second dad doesn’t know The Grace and Truth until he is 89 so he lives with standards. When he meets Jesus he becomes loving.

The Answer: Deuteronomy 30:19b I set before you life and death, the blessing and the curse. So choose life in order that you my live.

This choosing Life is often a minute by minute decision.